out_of_focus
raze
i
didn't
mean
for
it
to
turn
out
this
way
.
i
spent
a
long
time
working
the
focus
ring
.
trying
to
get
everything
just
right
.
something
about
the
screen
on
the
other
side
of
the
glass
didn't
agree
with
the
camera's
all
-seeing
eye
.
or
maybe
the
light
was
wrong
.
the
creature
i
saw
staring
back
at
me
shed
its
features.
the
blurred
background
built
a
brown
face
in
the
flowering
head
of
a
tree
not
much
taller
than
me
.
a
face
that
looks
like
someone
i
let
go
of
because
they
were
never
going
to
wrap
their
arms
around
my
skinny
spine
and
hold
me
back
.
the
only
clear
things
are
the
ones
that
don't
matter
.
the
bronzed
body
and
blue
handle
of
a
lunch
pail
that
hasn't
once
felt
food
in
its
belly
.
half
-empty
bottles
of
vitamins
.
small
smudges
that
look
like
rain
.
given
the
day
i
had
,
it
might
be
the
truest
picture
i
could
have
taken
,
even
if
the
scene
i
wanted
to
capture
has
been
gutted
,
twisted
into
something
distant
and
flawed
.
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