i_searched_my_notes_for_the_word_angel warmthofrelease I still couldn't quite tell if I was getting visited by an angel or if an angel was getting their space invaded by me (date unknown, this comes from a different set of notes, one big running list with no dates notated) (I probably won't pull from this source very often but I'll refer to it as the_low_new because that's the name that has stuck and when a name sticks you can try to change it but you're only lying to yourself) I don't mean to be so unsympathetic It's just that I'm FUCKING UNSYMPATHETIC I'm not your preacher not your maid not your medic I'm not your guardian angel not your prosthetic Not your painkillers antiseptic or anesthetic Not your prophet not your reaper not your sower I'm a skeptic Reviewing over all my calculations Ignoring every public demonstration Ignoring the broken logic from hypochondriac nation Answering my own questions and keeping my patience (May 2019, some lines edited out, words which I stole from myself to use as part of another idea) if_you_were an angel_on_my_shoulder, or a devil, you'd know that this is how I spend a great deal of my time just blemishing in the violence (March 2023) 250917 what's it to you? who go blather from