decisive
Soma I always waffle back and forth on names when I'm writing. Often, I'm putting in the name of someone I know, writing an embodiment of their memory as it lives in me or was told to me. Othertimes, I'm putting in the name of someone I love or hate, to drive my emotions.

But sometimes I feel too vulnerable to leave it the name that it was. Should I change it? Does it feel the same? The name is so personal, perhaps not? Back and forth I go, making one edit then another to test the way it feels in my mind as I speak the words.

Inevitably, my inability to be decisive leads to error. Alas.

(even more so when I inevitably use my favored M-dash)
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