catherine lux my stomachs turning i am watching a movie where these guys are yelling at each other it's all in black n white i lost her tonight i set them up it was the most brilliant and worst thing id done we may as well be mammals in the prairie with tufts of fur flying over this new Catherine or Katherine or cat or Kat or kitty I may as well call her kitty the way she comes the way I want her to come the way I gave all this up to you and you sat there and thanked me for helping talk you up and tell her how you saved me all the reasons I feel guilty for loving her and for loving how she turned down your kiss so lovingly and yet perfectly and I don't use that word lightly absolutely perfectly executed her decision to include me and if she contacts me my heart will flip and I will feel selfish and horrible but happy she chose me for once she chose me 140627 ... lux a shell of a human. what she did was so ridiculous i am surprised none of us saw it coming. the worst kind of person. 141111 what's it to you? who go blather from