thumbnail raze the pain finally went away. it took a few days to fade. i used to toss and turn. i could fall asleep on both sides, and on my stomach, and even on my back if i didn't mind the sleep paralysis and the sound of chainsaws and distant demonic voices growling threats. now i'm down to just this one position. i have to sleep with my left hand under the pillow. it's the only way to make it work. i guess the part of my thumb i don't think about at night got tired of the arrangement and wanted to let me know how unhappy it was. it didn't hurt until i touched it. then it felt like the bruise the flesh beneath the nail has spent its whole life trying to convince me it is. today i touch it and it's just a nail again. for now. 220628 what's it to you? who go blather from