there's_a_battle somniac its raging each side evenly matched which leaves a veil of serenity on the surface one side wants to do something fantastic to prove the doubters and the assumers and the critics wrong this side is propelled by the fear of doing nothing, being nothing, making nothing the other side is terrified of mud all over my face when i fall of giving it my all and that not being enough this side makes me procrastinate makes me say "i'm applying for a scholarship, but i probably won't get it" makes me blather instead of work will i ever stop wanting to prove myself to myself? will it ever be enough to convince me that i am ok? does everyone die in doubt? it comes back to the same old questions - will i ever be happy? and - is it worth the wait? 070303 what's it to you? who go blather from