getting_old nr these days, 99 percent of the time, even if i'm out at an event i enjoy, i will look forward to returning home, cuddling on a bed/chair, drinking a glass wine, and watching netflix. 160101 ... or even a glass OF wine. 160101 ... epitome of incomprehensibility I don't know if it's worse or better if you feel you've never really grown up. By "you" I mean me, though I think I know what you mean about preferring the calm and comfortable. I think I've always been more drawn to comfort than risks, though risks can be interesting and I've handpicked a few (hiking, camping, higher education, low-key climbing - I haven't done climbing in a while and now I DO feel old). I'll finish my thoughts on "2015". 160102 ... ovenbird There are a lot more signs and symptoms of this these days. Today, for instance, I managed to pull something in my leg just below my hip simply by...well...waking up. I really didn't do anything. I just woke up, moved my leg, and now it hurts. 251025 ... raze my body has held up surprisingly well for how little i loved it for so long. meanwhile, my mind buckles beneath the bulk of an insurmountable sleep_debt. as a younger man, i might have been better equipped to absorb all this punishment while giving some back. i feel older than i ever have and younger than i probably should. i am likely nearer to the end of my life than the beginning now. and that's a heavy thing to sit with. but half a lifetime is more than some people have to sink their teeth into. 251025 what's it to you? who go blather from