felt_compelled_to_leave_a_memento releaseofwarmth felt_compelled_to_leave_a_memento in the last hours of this brutal autumn and its not so unhappy ending I wanted to bury a picture in what leaves are left on the ground, something easily found or just as easily swept away. or leave an earring on the front counter at a restaurant. i have never even had my ears pierced. i wanted to make a flag no one had ever seen before and fly it in some place that it can barely be seen and can never be removed. i wanted to remind myself of this time and to remind myself forever that to keep_on_keeping_on is more important than any reason to do so. so much is being taken from me. but it doesn't matter. steve mcqueen said it, then he said it again, mark kozelek loved it enough to say it again, so I'll say it: hey you bastards i'm still here 251220 what's it to you? who go blather from