you_can't_ever_go_back Bespeckled Only forward. You can't undo your mistakes, you can only learn your lessons, and hope that optimism unbounded love and relentless passion will someday find another like itself and pay off. I can't rest until I find perfection - no, not a perfect person - but a perfect fit. Fire can only find kinship in fire. "Don't be afraid to let your passion guide you," is the advice I give to myself. "Face the truth," I say to me. "Find the one whose heart is as capable and ready to alight into the clouds as yours," I remind myself. For my soul needs a poet, a man who carries a torch for love, for passion, for light, and for imagination. "Find him," I say in my head. "Don't let your fear scare you into settling for mediocre." Oh, I hope it's not. I hope it's not. 081117 ... . but you can always go forward 081118 ... polly jean you can't go home again 081118 ... unhinged oh but i do over and over in my head 081119 what's it to you? who go blather from