psychotic amy adaptative well, gee, uh... i, for one, can definitely admit to it. it's unmistakable. i'm also neurotic. psychotic is 100 x's neurotic. psychotic is preoccupied with murder. that's all. i've got drugs that cure some of my overamplified sense of danger, although they never cure the cues to it, which mostly occur outside my own psyche. i observe them. i freak out, amplify stuff. also, my mind will never track normally. there will always be some sort of dysfunction which must be accomodated peacefully until it is well-adjusted. i'll never again not have to attend to it. never in any future whatsoever. nepenthe is probably the only thing that's available to me, if i can sleep a whole lifetime, now that'd be something. i feel bad for testosterone ridden boys whose families are unaware that condoning easy use of guns can be taken too far. in fact, i think they are victims, but this is no excuse not to put them in jail, or hell, or some other severely restrictive circumstances, because somewhere along the line they made a wrong thoughtform. and something happened. they did it. they MUST be restricted. for awhile. sorry. it's not a free country. 121216 what's it to you? who go blather from