northern_exposure
raze
i
used
to
program
my
vcr
to
grab
what
i
couldn't
catch
while
i
was
sleepwalking
through
my
final
year
of
high_school
.
when
i
was
awake
enough
to
walk
home
,
i
would
crawl
into
bed
and
let
my
tv
take
me
to
cicely.
i
wanted
to
live
in
that
place
.
to
know
those
people
.
to
make
films
with
ed
and
shoot
the
shit
with
shelly
between
shifts
at
the
brick
.
i
died
a
little
inside
every
time
chris
cut
his
hair
and
said
a
silent
prayer
when
joel
and
maggie
finally
got
together
,
knowing
it
couldn't
last
.
the
end
for
me
will
always
be
seeing
those
two
share
one
last
sad
kiss
in
the
cold
before
their
luckless
love
was
ferried
away
to
the
soft
strains
of
"
forever
night
shade
marie"
by
the
latin
playboys.
as
far
as
i'm
concerned
,
the
eight
episodes
that
aired
after
that
never
happened
.
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go
blather
from