neues_leben things we lost in the fire when he first saw the smoke rising from the naked trees it was like a signal being sent by one tribe of indians to another and the message was this: "he knew there would be DEATH AND DESTRUCTION." what would be lost in the fire? 040414 ... things we lost in the fire what if he, before returning to the burned carthaus, is invited to cross the bridge to another world in exchange for the sorrow of what he is about to experience; electing instead to feel isolation, exclusion, and longing? he is on a journey to find the cure for his sicklove. the cure is himself, but he does not know it. 040415 ... things we lost in the fire there is no escape from what must happen. we are tattooed with the cartography of the soul. we are papers in an envelope. we are licked stamps. he never thought there were ways he could escape depression, until he crossed the bridge, leaving kallenferyl and arriving in maris_den_cie. he sat in the chair and looked at his naked body. flesh upon bone and muscle. elvolve. change. grow. become. now when people beheld him they saw a man. 040416 ... things we lost in the fire beautiful vulnerability. he will visit his life as it had been written by an author for children's books. pain-stakingly illustrated with pen and ink by an artist friend. he will hold his life in his hands like a good friend sitting down to read a book to children. and as he reads he will discover who he is through the knowledge of who he was. famous in the world he created. 040417 what's it to you? who go blather from