in_the_pool
nonexistant that time
it was a man who swam up to me and just started touching me



i don't know what happened to him
he was just some guy, i didn't know him

i think i'd seen him at the pool before but he never really caught my attention
until, of course, that day he swam up to me


the rcmp phoned one day
there was a court date set
i never went

they sent this application i was supposed to fill out

the application was all about
post trauma treatment and stuff

i couldn't deal with it

i didn't want anyone to phone the police
but the lifeguards, i knew them for years, and one of them saw it happen


i had to give my account verbally to the lady officer and then they got me to write it down in story form.
i didn't want to do that, but i complied. there were other girls as well that it had happened to so i wasn't alone, but i was scared and didn't know what or why anything was happening. 		041112
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mon uow i learned how to swim in that pool 050225
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n o m i just remember how upset i was
when i got that form in the mail
and i thought
if i have to deal with this
i have to deal with other things
and i just cried a bunch 		141103
...
jane rather than
drifting
i find myself
sinking
to
the
bottom,

if for no
other reason,
to look up
at light
patterns

and wait
for my
breath
to
run
out. 		141110
what's it to you?
who go 		blather
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