go_away flux she broke things off by just stopping all communication. this may have been the worst thing she could possibly have done, much worse than even "i just don't like you anymore". it left me to make up my own reasons, over and over again. it left me confused and scared, hurt and mistrustful. i've had to fight on and off for months just to stay out of despair. and i don't know what to do. i've tried accepting it, forgetting it, confronting it, ignoring it, moving on, but there's always reminders lurking as pitfalls, and i find myself lying in bed again, staring at the ceiling, punching_the_floor, or pacing around the block at four in the morning. and i can't think, i can't create, i can't work. i need to get my mind off of this, and i'm getting desperate. 070102 ... prue our feet pace in the same desperate tandem... stalking closure. 070411 ... leni what am i sad for for what thing am i sad the aching tunnel has divided in my chest to hollow hearts 080411 what's it to you? who go blather from