borrowing
nom)
again
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...
nom)
i
still
owe
050921
...
nom)
to
cover
the
phone
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...
amy in red
i
study
,
learn
,
and
borrow
from
Buddhism.
But
I'm
not
sure
I
take
refuge
in
it
--
I
think
too
much
with
my
body
. Borrowing
is
not
refuge
.
I'm
not
sure
if
it's
a
gender
thing
.
If
I
were
to
take
refuge
in
it
,
I'd
be
able
to
hook
up
with
a
monastery
or
meditation
center
--
and
maybe
i
will
-
but
somehow
the
Christian
friendly
martyr
thing
has
more
hold
(
even
though
i
am
not
baptised
much
to
my
chagrin
and
i
have
not
had
religious education,
these
values
are
still
easily
passed
down
.)
i'm
trying
to
think
through
it
,
and
it's
a
hard
thing
to
think
through
.
since
borrowing Buddhism
like
it's
in
the
library
makes
me
sad
,
i
am
somewhat
convinced
that
local
politics
and
security
or
whatever
are
more
pressing
issue
than
global
politics
.
but
carbon
is
a
global
issue
so
that's
a
hard
thing
. *
some
people
will
get
flooded
basements
more
often
in
the
Chicago
area
due
to
climate
change
.
so
,
without
too
much
consequence
the
pretty
big
population
here
(
though
not
as
big
as
the
Chinese
cities
)
will
just
continue
with
a
standard
of
pollution.
the
stable
middle
is
a
false
sense
of
security
.
more
complications....
the
things
(
because
,
frankly
)
little
me
has
had
to
think
about
....
just
to
resolve
the
tension
of
making
sense
.... sheeeesh. craazy.
literally
and
figuratively.
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go
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