short_lived raze i found her when i wasn't looking anymore, in a field i had some history with. i'd found other people there. but not her. never her. she knew i'd been looking. knew too about the years i spent trying to track her down. calling every number that might have been hers. naked and shivering under the covers. sure she would have already forgotten me. halfway hoping i'd fail. deep down knowing i would. she knew all of that and said nothing. that broke something inside of me, and when the broken thing mended itself it was coarser than before. so i learned to forget everything i'd been holding onto. let it all just fall away. and i don't think i ever dreamed of her again. 220914 what's it to you? who go blather from