parallel_engineering amy in red i find it a little boring, but, so, i guess, is hammering out right-everything. my soul (seems like) wants to take more credit than it is due. this leads to others coming to steal some stuff back, and then higher powers turning around and saying no, you were okay and do deserve some credit. naturally, un-masochistically, i will align with the positive spin rather than the negative judgment and, well, uninformed idle (to them, i guess) chatter. without getting the whole -worth- thing right, i just don't even want to come back all that often.... which is my overreaction. it might indeed take a long time to get the whole YES I AM thing down okay, and no, that doesn't mean i'm at the end of my deal, not at all. i mean that honestly and truly. if you have a long way to go, you don't take 10 sandwiches and give 9 away. no, you keep them. i give a little away. and as far as the story goes, i only tell a little bit of it, so, and i guess i could bear to tell more, if only to make some of that dough like others do. 120203 what's it to you? who go blather from