my_state_now
Bespeckled
cross
-reference:
hurt
041107
...
shilohlives
Temporarily
fine
,
because
you
love
me
,
But
temporary
is
so
painful
.
Will
you
choose
me
tomorrow
?
041108
...
Bespeckled
I
will
choose
you
tomorrow
if
you
do
not
choose
her
ever
again
.
If
I
can
eradicate
the
slightest
fear
that
you
will
someday
choose
her
instead
of
me
,
even
for
a
moment
...
then
I
will
choose
you
every
day
for
the
rest
of
my
life
.
041109
...
raze
if
it's
possible
to
be
exhausted
, enraged,
indifferent
,
and
inspired,
all
at
the
same
time
,
the
resulting
mess
would
be
me
.
241222
...
ovenbird
A
state
of
flux
.
Something
is
rising
,
something
feral
. Perimenopause
is
often
portrayed
as
a
state
of
horrifying decline.
But
what
if
that's
what
we're
told
so
we
never
see
the
power
in
it
?
What
if
we're
being
lied
to
and
it's
really
a
state
that
provides access
to
profound
self
knowledge
.
A
state
of
awareness
.
A
state
of
no
fucks
left
to
give
.
A
state
of
awakening
.
251118
...
ovenbird
Buzzing
exhaustion
.
As
if
the
lice
that
have
plagued
my
day
burrowed
into
the
muscle fibers
of
my
legs
resulting
in
a
revolting sensation
of
creeping
movement
beneath
my
skin
.
I
want
to
sleep
and
throw
open
the
door
to
the
collective
unconscious
so
that
everything
real
is
drowned
by
dreams
.
251130
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from
