integrate Toxic_Kisses You obviously want to be in my life to some degree, proof of that is that you keep contacting me, or ask that I contact you. Truth is I have absolutely no idea how I'm suppose to integrate you into my life. None. I don't say that to be mean or cruel. It's just that I'm honestly _lost_ ! L O S T ! This is not a road I've ever been down before and I have absolutely _NO_ idea at all as to what I'm doing and far more importantly what I _should_ be doing. You text that you still miss me I want to make you feel better, to heal the scar that I've left in your heart, but I don't have the right words for that, so as is usual I say something increadibly stupid and insecitive then run the fuck away I say: Think Happy Thoughts (and) This phone is about to die so I need to recharge it, TTL . Bc yea that's all so incredibly helpful to you. Fuck I hate me! Why can't I ever say the right thing? Why do I always have to hurt you when what I want more then anything is to do the opposite? I hate me so much right now 140718 what's it to you? who go blather from