i_don't_belong_here nr i've tried. but i don't. not right now. i want to be there. so badly. everything i want is there. everyone i want is there. my life there is a life that feels fulfilled. not knowing if the steps i've been taking for months to get there will be enough is making me more and more disillusioned. i try to convince myself to keep going and research all i can and polish everything as much as possible and things could work out and not to assume there will be a negative outcome. but the uncertainty is hard. i think feeling like you don't belong somewhere isn't as dangerous as finally finding out where you do belong and not knowing whether you'll be able to get there. 150531 what's it to you? who go blather from