them scarlett i felt jealous at your closeness. that you have what i cannot. embarassed was i. of these emotions. i am an adult. i need to give in to the facts. i let my heart lead me. it always ends in pain. still i am following. i'd rather be in pain. than always wondering. 011114 ... endless desire all of them they are so happy. they leave me here just look at them. oh god this isn't fair. 031223 what's it to you? who go blather from