sleeplessness .nom restlessness 050123 ... unhinged my monkey mind just won't quit 050124 ... .nom my brain waves are messed up 050124 ... unhinged even when heavily sedated, i still wake up. the idea of rest is lost on me. 050203 ... no reason on the cheek of ours 050203 ... tender_square 1:30 and tendons twitched electrically charged when lights are muted i held wild creatures knitted and felted to my chest’s manger curved my form to sleep with your shadow 220702 ... nr despite the cbd, weed, a benzo, allergy medication, and breathing exercises, i may have got two or three hours. i had too many absurd half_asleep_thoughts to count, yet i was too tired to do anything with them. there's a strange energy that comes with doing a lot in a day while in this state. it comes in bursts that ultimately end in crashes of sorts, with some unusual behaviour in between. i completely, obliviously rushed by a colleague of mine who was dressed as a cocktail drink with a neon pink wig and apparently repeating my name. i put a large halloween mask on upside down and didn't realize until i was told. i said "spring training" instead of "world series," and again didn't realize until he replied "what?" maybe this is all just the brain doing what it subconsciously knows is right. 251029 what's it to you? who go blather from