primal
belly fire
There
are
many
ways
we
experience
shock
and
grief
;
I
have
been
present
for
many
.
But
there
was
something
raw
in
the
primal screams
of
the
mother
who
held
the
lifeless
body
her
son
in
the
basement
.
For
nine
long
minutes
I
listened
as
she
wailed
and
cried
out
for
him
.
I
tried
to
comfort
the
mother
,
to
no
avail.
As
she
broke
apart
,
I
waited,
holding
myself
still
as
stone
.
When
I
disconnected
the
line
,
I
felt
myself
come
apart
too
.
I
am
a
mother
.
I
held
tight
to
my
son
that
evening
and
willed
the
sounds
of
her
screams
away
from
inside
my
own
head
.
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go
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from