verge_of_epiphany now_now every once in a while i'll have an idea rattling around in my head that, in a single moment, seems on the verge of cracking wide open. i try to hold on to this thin_ice concept, tugging at the edges, trying to exploit it structural weaknesses so it might give in & reveal itself. it is the edge, the very precipice of understanding [the threshold of revelation, as Tony Kushner called it]. this tedious teetering on the edge of the infinite. & then, as suddenly as it came, this moment of almost understanding, of almost enlightenment, slips away & all i'm left with this finite sensation, this feeling of remorse & the sting of the almost that goes unfulfilled. 080718 ... jane ah yes. i'm familiar with disappointment. 080812 what's it to you? who go blather from