wormwood birdmad bitter star absinthe green sugar dissolve 011111 ... Aaron hehehe.. birdman.. i didn't know you knew anything about the synthe... i loved that stuff.. drank it every night i was on it when i wrote this. green fairy my mind a mass of confusion, decay and want, my head swiming with my body in a desert, the lush torment with no one to share this tortureous bliss with. the end of a beginning and the mass of my love hate love sorrow love. "teach you, dream you, find you, taste you, fuck you, use you, scar you, break you, pass me, hate me, squash me, erase me, kill me, tear me, kill me, kill me. i hurt my self today, to see if i still feel, i focus on the pain the only thing thats real, the needle teart a hole, that old firmiliar sting, try to kill it all away but i remember every thin." from "erase" and "hurt". i'm sure most of you know the rest of hurt. i am in a rather bad mood and way of things, and at the moment life doesn't hold much. a bunch a drunkern rambleings, but i'm not drunk, just the strange intoxication of absinthe, the green farie tortures me with her dance. numb, my mind wandering from nothingness to the beyond that i seek, some relavance to the life, the saposed life, my existance that i live, or dwell in. it's quite obvious that i am depresed, but not in the way that you would expect. i can't find anything worthwhile in my existance, my life, if it is, something to look forward to, nor the motivation to do anything, i certinly wouldn't end my existance though, my love and tortue is too much fun, maybe i enjoy this strange intoxication of my being, and the deaths grip my love and hate and love holds on me. all the lovers leave me, my mood goes shallow, and i don't feel the love that i know lives in me. 011111 ... hsg artemisia_absinthium 080101 ... hsg i added some stevia to the tea. i may have liked the wormwood moreso by itself. 090610 ... jane paregoric 090610 ... hsg med_is_in 090611 ... daph Killed my tummy worms 150201 what's it to you? who go blather from