withdraw Lisa it's when you want to vanish, or just lack the words you need to say.. it's when you become real calm, and your breathing shuts down.. and you can't see me anymore.. and I neither can.. it's when you start to try to catch your own shadow, or when you know that you seem to stand right next to yourself. for no one to see. "vanished from the crest of the earth, back in some days" 040720 ... newme forces 040721 ... nemo no needle no spoon no tie no water no filter no lighter no vein no heroin no methadone no more its been two years since i was ever so pleastently tainted. let the pain begin. i feel like my falling apart, my brain seeping through the small cracks and creases (no doubtibly formed through many more than two years of excessive abuse), my skin the colour of egg yolks: face bloated and aged from retaining water for a few years. little ant trails of plum scar my arms, reminding me of what ive done. no matter, because im only 18, and ive got a life to live 040722 ... oblivion you cut 041030 ... somebody I keep meaning to withdraw from the futility of trying to communicate. I find these palsied attempts more frustrating than the occasional satisfaction granted by a fleeting loquacity. 060610 what's it to you? who go blather from