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hsg you finally understand what it is. 080418
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tourist Give Freely
What is Mine
Is Thine
This Place
This Time
We Pass Through
Entwined

Lonliness
Is
Such
A

Drag
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hoy then it's probably not love as love will surely hurt you at some point. it is inevitable for you are most vulnerable when you love. 080418
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unhinged love_is_pain 080418
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hsg i too have felt the pain of your definition of love. but can you honestly say that you have felt the ecstasy of this other view or is it possible that pain is a last resort when you have failed to learn through kinder mechanisms? you cannot suffer forever. you will redefine love as what works right after you readjust who you are into playing for what is love.

love_is_awake ... and no longer bumps her head yet she still pumps her art.
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rhin it isn't really love 080419
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yellow love is pleasure and pain mixed up together. 080419
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kung fu There's no pleasure or pain involved in love (if you know what love is), nothing hurts and nothing is a fleeting sensation.

Love has nothing to do with jealousy, possession or expectations. It is totally resilient to any kind of intentional stabbing.

It won't stab you back, it will just let you laugh or cry at yourself.
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unhinged ecstasy may not be the right word for it; but more like an antidote.

an antidote to the expectation to receive anything in return for the vast amount of myself i've invested in others over the years, that only in rare cases of a handful of human beings was ever returned. love_is_pain because of my own tiny human perception of it (and most other humans tiny perception of it). the way my brain cries out 'hey, so when are you going to give that back?' instead of 'hey, here you go; i don't need that anymore anyways.'

that in my 'worldview' the pleasure of love is just simply in the giving. and by not being attached, but just giving giving giving, i am making the world around me a better place.



i know
i know
it seems so harsh. but in reality, it's where the seed of compassion is sown.
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yellow oh really?
and when it leaves you?

it hurts.

even if you love unconditionally, you are only human...unless of course, you're not.
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kung fu Nothing hurts if you don't let it.
Missing someone does not have to be painful.

How can Love leave you?
Maybe it really depends on how you define Love.
If you try to hold it or if you just let it be a whole part of you.
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HellisaSeriousGoal love cannot leave. a person, yes. but the things which matter mostill remaindestructible.

as far as practicing giving for its own sake: u r free when u hold back nothing. what u hold reflects a complementary amount of fear. wanting to be cling_free enough to practice leads you in the right direction. not having arrived yet does not make you wrong but does allow pain to temporarily remain.

you can bounce a bowling ball off of a brick wall and feel it hit you. it would likely hurt. heed these words of wisdom! the wall hasn't plotted against you. neither hate you. if you expect to get something back, you may! if the wall goes away it doesn't hate you because it's no longer throwing balls at you!

climb up the wall... repel down it. don't be afraid to fall. you will. but the viewillead you back up. one dayou'lleap over it just for fun! the wall, love's you. love is you, yes. stop trying to kick yourself with the balls.

climbing up, people'll certainly throw some bowling balls at you, with love of course. you may dodge these because they won't stop until they manage to hit themselves in the head with them anyway. the sad part is thathey cry when they miss!

ok, so stop throwing huge heavy marbles. sayou'really sorry and give the wall a hug! fuck it, climb allover the damned thing! celebrate the wall. blend. learn to love yourself so you can get over it! until you learn to love yourself you will hate (fear) success in what matters most. get over the wall and you willearn what's on the other side of love.

when love doesn't hurt you, you stop attacking the idea of love. resentment is gone. confusion is gone. anger is gone. they all bounced andiedown. you grew up and got over it.

try to side_step the wall and you will only manage to excuse your fear and bury yourself in things. houses, cars, clutter. you can get so good at hiding that you have a hard time finding your way out, which way is up. that's if u even have the humility to give youself time to think! your schedule so important: "excuse me, you knowhich way to hell?" "yeah, keep going straight! when you get to thend of the road you're gonna come to a big wall. shake your fist at it for not loving you, turn around & repeat the process for eternity minus a second. you can't miss it."

learn to laugh at your love. either way, you win!
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hsg notice:

most ill
remain destructible

most still
remain indestructible

such is the intelligence of love.
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kung fu your metaphorical wall story don't make no sense to me, i assume that what you me is that Love is a give and take thing but with no expectation to give or take at the same time. I assume your wall might be the same as mirror, i truly don't believe you need anyone once you know yourself, once you love yourself, because "i" or "me" or "my" should mean everything that exists. 080420
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unhinged i can only love you
do what you will
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. what i will do is make sure i am nowhere near you whenever possible. 080420
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Lemon_Soda Which may be the kindest thing you could do. 080421
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. i wasn't talking to you. 080421
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Lemon_Soda I didn't say you were. 080508
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lux you're doing it wrong. 080508
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birdmad hah, you beat me to that one. 080509
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lux love you, bird. and it hurts, but i keep doing it. because it feels so good. 080509
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depeche mode ♫ "we call it Master and Servant" ♫ 080509
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h|s|g wldhu are awake 110307
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unhinged it's probably lulling you into a false sense of security 110307
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unhinged it's probably lulling you into a false sense of security 110307
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unhinged (and double_clicking the blather button. damnit) 110307
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In_Bloom Sip it slowly, say thank you a lot and give back as much as you can. 111029
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