when_i_woke_up x i had to check outside my window to see if a sprinkler had broken outside my window or if it was really pouring that hard. it was. it still is. 040217 ... jane i cried to dream again... 040217 ... x my mind was running overtime, thwarting my desire to sleep another couple of hours 040218 ... x my eyes were surrounded by crust, as if they had been trying to flood my contacts out. i had a vague vibrating feeling from all the beer and a painful dryness in the back of my throat. i went back to sleep several times until it seemed like a better idea to get up. 040219 ... Syrope i could remember crawling into bed with you, and i remember loving the feeling of sleeping with someone again. i rememberd you slightly tensing around me when i woke up and stirred, and how that made me feel safe. then i remember our simultaneous orgasm. i don't remember why i let that happen. i already told you i don't like how you make me feel when i'm in any sort of sexual relationship with you. it's like the guy in dance class who thinks he's an expert...i usually avoid him and he's usually ok with it, but then we had to dance, and i refused to follow his incorrect leads, so now he seeks me out to see if he can break me into blindly following him even when the instructor calls out something different. you're only interested in me when i resist or feign indifference. but still, when_i_woke_up, it was good not to be alone. 040219 ... Deomis I remembered why I went to sleep in the first place. I just wanted to forget... 040829 ... TK ...I felt kinda bland and came here out of habbit, only to find that you had been here and left lil notes and thoughts behind and now I cant get this happy goofie grin off my face ^.^ you always seem to know just what to do and say to make me happy! I_so_miss_you 040830 ... TK ...I felt kinda bland and came here out of habbit, only to find that you had been here and left lil notes and thoughts behind and now I cant get this happy goofie grin off my face ^.^ you always seem to know just what to do and say to make me happy! I_so_miss_you 040830 ... pete i heard your voice fluttering down the stairs to were i lay. you were singing. i was in a subterranian heaven. 040830 ... metamantrg im glad I did.... after 4 darvsets and 75mgs of valume for the pain the body is going through I feel real sick 040831 ... mon uow i forgot what i'd written in my sleep 050318 ... mon uow that's always happening 050318 ... mon the world was still 051007 ... pete i looked confusingly at the wall, then rolled over and felt the warmth, sleep retreating before a presense, sleepy words and smudged glances, all in the before dawn haze, dreading when the clock would call us truly awake, sending her away (though she wasn't to stay). 051007 ... endless desire when i woke up i realized i had never been asleep. 051007 ... tail-devouring snake i felt happy and smiled 141019 ... unhinged i rolled over, reset the alarm, crawled back under my awesome new blanket that is my current human affection replacement 141019 ... unhinged i could hear my neighbor moaning rolled over and looked at my phone 4am is her fuck time for some reason in my half asleep state i could feel myself getting turned on then she started yelling hurry up and my libido ran under a rock to hide hurry up just get it over with use the hole for your own ends and give me my body back hurry up he seemed to oblige because she got quiet and i rolled over and slept longer than normal 200630 what's it to you? who go blather from