what_i_want Rhin i want to taste me i want you to hear me i want you in me i want to never love again i want to have loved again i want to lose my sanity i want to be sane i want pizza i want stawberry wine i want a blue world i want to feel exhilarated i want my baby i want to stop writing for now i want to write again i want to write tomorrow i want you to shut up i want your number i want to go now i want a little normal i want a little respect i want someone to listen to me i want the sunny side of the street i want to climb out of this hole i want you to lick the ground i walk on i want you to leave me alone i want what we had i want you out of my head i want to cry a little more i want to jump before the gun goes off i want what i cannot have i want what is in your hands i want you to die a slow agonizing death i want your head on a platter i want to immerse my hands into a pool of flower petals i want to drink the blood from the fountain i want to pull the stinger out of a bee i want to tell my father to go to hell i want to tell my friends that they mean nothing to me i want anonymity i want to attain my freedom i want to drive the autobahn i want to participate in a bacchanalia i want to stand at the pulpit i want to be the righteous one i want to say i love you and mean it i want to scream in your ear while you are sleeping i want you to keep quiet i want to know how far i can really go i want to throw rocks at your glass house i want to be a needle piercing your skin i want to ride your naked body i want to take you into my mouth i want to save you for later i want to say 'get the fuck out!' i want a drink of water i want to make a toast i want to pick your brain i want to be you i want to try a little harder i want you to be me i want the dream back i want the nightmare to go away i want to take away your sight i want the real you i want a piece of pie, but will settle for a piece of Heaven i want to be a death spasm i want to snort a line of snow i want to drink a vial of poison i want to scratch my nails down your back i want to pull off the ultimate heist i want to be beautiful again i want to be flawless i want the cynicism gone i want you to look twice i want to be your last thought at night i want to be your waking thought i want too much i want a touch of reality i want to kill the killer i want to see you groveling i want to make you eat your words i want you to feel my pain i want your body writhing in a pool of my anguish i want not enough i want to be more than i am i want to stress you out i want to dress backwards i want to not help it i want deliverance i want to be the worm in the bottle i want to be fascinated by you i want to be humbled i want to meet a kindred spirit i want a distraction i want to find a common ground i want to paint the painter i want to run amuck i want to cause a ruckus i want to talk about it i want you to let me go i want you to help me die i want to not think anymore i want to understand i want to take a risk i want to take my innocence back i want to compose a sonata i want you to forget me i want to be eloquent i want to sing in the choir i want to have your baby i want to be open wide i want to wear you out i want to be frightened i want you to know i have lost faith in you i want to remind you to call me i want you to know i am not well i want you to clean up your mess i want you gone i want a sideways look i want the illusion i want a baby grand i want to hear the mystical i want to wear the holster i want to be young again i want a little protection i want the knight in shining armor i want a bottle of pills i want acceptance i want a little space i want to tell you how i feel i want to be fearless i want some more respect i want to be nurtured i want to climb back in my mother i want to bring the house down i want to swing on a vine i want to wash my hands i want to erase you i want a time machine i want to be swept under the rug i want her to call me i want to hear her story i want to kiss away her tears i want to laugh at your pain i want to banish you from my heart i want to tie you to my grill i want to fuck you i want to hear you scream my name i want your body writhing in pleasure i want the bruises once again i want to sing a song of innocence i want a butterfly in my soup i want a pretty puppet i want to taunt a stupid man i want a wasted soul i want to fuck you up i want to bask in sunlight i want the night more i want to hear you end it all i want to be the cause i want to relish in your misery i want to be your little toy i want to remember when i want some of Nana's Pumpkin pie i want to tell my mother i want her to know the real me i want her to understand i want something that could never be i want alot i want some of your faith i want to take back that fateful trip i want some of your stupidity i want a ticket back home i want you to fight your way in i want it to be easy i want an easy way out i want to die like you i want to be exceptional at one thing i want to not be just mediocre at a few things i want the memory i want what you have always known i want to know your confusion i want to strip you of your pride i want you to destroy that black horse i want you to fucking grow up i want to slap your face dramatically i want to take that back i want to admonish your childlike ways i want i want i want i want to be me i want to open up again i want to know why it's so hard i want it right here i want you in control i want to charge the palace i want everything i want nothing i want you to read this i want to hear you read it i want you to leave my words alone i want you to find your own i want to challenge you once again i want you to provoke me i want something traumatic i want the inspiration i want my own muse i want a sacrifice i want a lear jet i want to build a house i want to watch it fall down i want to embrace you i want to rise up again i want to undress i want the wicked look i want the degree i want to shove a mothball down your throat i want to paint a van gogh i want to travel the world alone i want to seek my own fortune i want to be a fortune 500 centerfold i want to fly i want to fly i want to fly i want to meet your parents i want to ask permission to kiss you i want you to remember me i want to be remembered for something i want a lifetime of something special i want to inhale the garden i want to lay on a bed of sterling silver's i want to meet the president i want to float on the rhine i want to go to sleep i want a bestest friend i want a ticket to paradise i want an eclipse i want an evolution i want life to end as we know it i want more than you 020315 ... reitoei i want to yell at everyone to wakeup from their unfeeling exsitence. but no one will listen i want to erase humanity and replace them with AI. but i cant i want a to always love me and be with me. but i can't force that i want to forget most of my life. but i never will. i want to have a job i like. but that will never happen i want to graduate early. but i can't i want to write something worth reading. but im not that good. i want to hide from humanity. but they will always see me i want to change the world. but it will always be the same i want to be optimistic. but there's no point i want to think there's a point to my life. but i know there isn't i want people to listen to me seriously. but they never will i want an sgi O3. but ill never have one. i want seamlessly augmented reality. but that is for another lifetime. i want to understand the universe. but no one ever will. i want to have something i want. but everything i can have is superficial. 020315 ... Aaron simple little things.. a romantic interest.. to loose some weight.. a mind that doesn't need therapy.. a job.. to look back on my life fondly without remorse.. to look ahead with confidence.. 020316 ... kerry some guy with hair in his eyes and a guitar cradled in his arms. things that are utterly impossible. and some things that aren't. a good shopping trip, something simple to make me happy, and a really rad concert. then again, we all want too much, don't we? 020316 ... Toxic_Kisses I'll never have what I want bc it is and of it' self contradictory but I want it non-the-less 020317 ... piercedjenny I want to be able to sleep with the lights out, without fear of anyone being in my closet. I want to look forward to tomorrow without worrying about wanting drugs to make me feel like me. I really truly just want to be the me I have this really vague recollection of when I look in the mirror and see a stranger looking back. 020330 ... Syrope wow pierced... i want to be able to make just one decision and be absolutely sure of it, 100%...none of this going back and wondering "what if..?" but generally...well, ask me on a more superficial day and i want birth control, liposuction, a week at a spa, and a knight in shining armour on a white horse who likes literature, movies, music, and sex. *shrug* i take what i can get... 020330 ... pralines&cream excitement adventure freedom from you, from you, from you, and from you to be me, to find me to do whatever the fuck i feel like doing at any given time. But that's impossible isn't it? 020819 ... Zero I want to pull the trigger and make her feel the pain she left me in. 020819 ... devalis kiss 021003 ... blue star love and respect. Because I do deserve it. Hell yes. 021004 ... ~gez~ a simple gesture that shows you love me. although i know you do. a way to prove how much i love you, without feeling obsessive. i would destroy this world for you, you mean everything to me 021004 ... not an angry girl i want love i want understanding i want to wake up and be awake i want to fall asleep before midnight i want to be confident i want to stop being afraid i want to feel sane i want to be productive i want to be motivated i want to have a full life i want to speak a different language i want to do something better i want to know something more i want to finish my to-do list i want to be able to afford school i want to feel healthy again i want to wake up early and see the sun i want to wake up in someone's arms i want to love i want to be loved i want to smile i want to cry i want to laugh i want to dance i want to write i want to read i want the insanity to stop i want to breathe 030127 ... god yeh, me too 030127 ... x you inside me now 030127 ... mon i barely know who i am 031229 ... sirflaccid After you I feel awake. What I mean is I have a better understanding of what I am searching for. I was afraid of this when it first entered my brain. I thought it was a comparison type thing. I have come to realize that it is not. It is me defining the things that I must have. You have showed me parts of humanity that I did not think could exist in my world. True compassion, blunt honesty, special connections that no one else could ever understand, beautiful forms of unhealthy communication, and having a complete conversation without saying a word. I crave these things. I NEED these things. And no matter what I WILL NOT SETTLE FOR ANY LESS. 050129 ... flexible is to want the things i have. once you own something, you cease to want it. 'i don't think i want to be your friend anymore' you reacted just as i expected. dude, you're getting predictable! 'i think i just am.' 050201 ... HidingOnTheWall I want you to want me I want to know myself I want to scream I want to cry I want to live I want to die I want to find my voice I want to be heard I want the fear to fade I want to know if love is real I want to feel true I want the world to stop spinning I want to be held I want to be invisible I want to be seen I want to crawl in a hole I want to stand out I want to be different I want to be known I want to be perfect I want to rebel I want to float about it all I want the skys tears to never dry I want to walk in the clouds I want the spinning from smoking I want the warmth from drinking I want the excitment of barely getting away. I want time to stop I want my life to begin I want to fall I want you to catch me I want to hold your hand I want to feel your magic I want you to kiss me I want to feel free I want to run away I want the ghosts to disappear I want the day to be shorter I want the night to never end I want to feel you inside of me I want to hide I want to want to smile I want you to need me I want to cry on your shoulder I want to hold you I want to run to your house when the world is too much I want the weight off my shoulders I want to dance with the moon I want to dream in the stars I want the rain to wash away my pain I want the burn on my leg to heal I want the scar to stay real I want the warmth to never fade I want to keep it a secret I want you to know I want you to touch the scar and feel my pain I want you to cry with me I want to wake up in your arms I want to smell like you I want to wear your jacket I want to fly higher I want to never touch the ground I want you to never leave me I want to trust you I want you to trust me I want to never have to say 'Im sorry' I want to never hurt again I want to stare strangers in the eye I want you to find me where I hide I want to run away from life I want you by my side I want you to guide me I want your tenderness I want all your affection I want to touch you I want you to touch me I want you to whisper in my ear I want you to dream about me I want to never cry again I want more time I want to live a life I will never regret, leave memories that you will never forget and write something someone will cherish. I want to be remembered. 050530 ... no reason is to be what_you_want from everyone or anyone 050530 ... falling_alone i want to remember every day and detail 050530 ... Lemon_Soda All I have. Will I want more? As I get it. 050531 ... birdmad to forget to let go to not feel 050531 ... Spacey Headcase I want to fuck him I want to marry rich I want to be richer I want to wear diamonds and fur I want you to care I want you to look good too I want to shave his face I want to kill him I want to love him I want him to like the Pixies I want to be Kim Deal I want to fuck her too I want to be thinner I want you to give a fucking damn I want you to be happy I want you to get over things I want to you to get what you want I want to get what I want I want to be a musician I want to be an artist I want to be a journalist I want to make a movie based on our life here I want to own a record shop I want to be famous for those things I want you to fuck me I want to be fucked I want you to beg I want you to want me I want them to care I want to be older I want to stop talking to Andy I want to still talk to Matt I want to have you in my life until we both die I want you to know how much music means to me I want you to understand that I want you to never take that away I want to fuck my husbands I want my husbands list to be as wanted as being casted by the plaster casters I want my tits casted by the plaster casters I want you to never leave I want to be sure that you won't I want you to care I want to be close to the Pixies I want you to know how much music means to me I want to be the music I listen to I AM the music I listen to that's why it means so much to me I want you to care I want to fuck him real bad I want to get high I want to drink I want to smoke I want more than I'll ever get I want to.... love music more than anything, because it will never leave me like you will. 050612 ... unhinged for somebody to finally say 'you're such a great friend that i will love you the way you need me to, not the way that benefits me the most.' 050612 ... a chaotic gift to idealism well said.. well said. 050613 ... rhin i want passion. 051019 ... andru235 i want to go d'home now. 051019 ... no reason i should focus on this more but i'm not always sure what_i_want and even when i am it changes or maybe i just can't admit anything i ever really want because that puts pressure or emphasis on the fact that i want it and if i never get it? (words are losing meaning i shouldn't think/type when i'm high) 070330 ... peyton wherever you are rhin i hope you are happy but more than anything I really hope you are okay. I miss you. 101121 ... rhin Peyton, happiness is a state of being that i'll never understand, but thank you all the same. i hope that you have found some measure of happiness, or least contentment. 101222 ... n o m sometimes, i don't know, i am curious 110609 ... rhin i want to turn back the clock i want to know what i am doing here i want to rake my nails down my face i want to rake my nails down yours i want to tell you that i don't trust you i want you to know that you are a bigger closet freak than i am i want you to beg for life before i silence you i want you to know that i will never trust you i want you to know that you will probably pale in comparison i want to forget i want to forget the jealous one i want to forget the dead one i want to forget the drunk one i want to forget the suicidal one i want to forget the confused one i want to forget the clingy one i want to forget the narcissistic one i want to forget the user i want to remember why i forgot them i want to stop wanting people i want to stop trusting i want one more smile i want one last breath i want the pain i want to beg for it i want to tell you again that i will never trust you i want to never trust you i want to never trust you ever i want to remind you of why i will never trust you i want to pull you in i want you to trust me i want you completely vulnerable i want my words to slice through your skin so jaggedly that every time you hear my name, blood trickles from the scars like wind-blown thread i want you to know what revenge tastes like i want you to know that it tastes like me i want you to want to lick me i want you to kiss me unknowingly i want just one last fucking thing never mind. i don't want it 130429 ... unhinged never really factored in for you 130429 ... unhinged 'a little less stress a lot more security' 130501 ... unhinged doesn't matter 130502 ... rhin i want you to not have cancelled tonight i want to know why i am not really bothered that you cancelled i want you to know i am lying i want you to know that i am pulling away from you i want you to know that i am telling the truth 130503 ... rhin i want to figure you out i want to give this the time it deserves i want to know what you are really thinking 130505 ... gabbie is for the end to come so we can begin again 130506 ... rhin i want to learn to bite my tongue i want someone that i can call Dudley i want a neck massage i want to not be afraid...again i want to not be afraid of men i want to not be afraid of me i want to scream because i can i want to stop wanting 130507 ... rhin i want... fuck it. no. i want a grape slushie. really. i want to not cry into my grape slushie. i want to not feel overwhelmed as i sip my grape slushie. i want to stop thinking for one second and just love my grape slushie. i want to forget that i have wasted precious moments of my life writing about wanting a fucking grape slushie. 130512 ... no reason i've been told i don't often go for what i want, but what i want is always so difficult to get 130906 ... no reason i want to do everything to reach anything but can't motivate myself to do any of it. 130906 what's it to you? who go blather from