what_i_didn't_know lostgirl i told my closest friends to leave me alone i didn't really want to talk it out to 'hash things over' i wanted to be alone so there'd be no hate thrown around carelessly it's taken me three weeks of solitude meditation eating properly exercise work and drinking plenty of water minus alcohol (ha! what a concept) i know exactly what the issues are now my shortcomings have caught up with me finally (all the talking in the world would have never changed a thing) there are some things beyond my control and i accept this embrace this but... you controlled me kept me hidden in a box right where you wanted me and i resent you for it, still, after all this time but goddamn it i'd never hate you for it because when i gazed through the looking glass i realized it was a mirror i_am_so_sorry 110518 what's it to you? who go blather from