what_can_i_say mon how can i say it 030828 ... a chaotic gift to idealism can i say that i give up ? i dont seem to have that capability with you. with little knowledge i fell in love with you once. days have gone past. the horrifying events of my life have unfolded. years have gone by. it has only been days since we first met again. you have took my heart away. i have not cried for anyone in longer than my mind allows me to remember. i love you. can i say i give up ? i dont seem to be able. you stole my heart once. it has been biding its time in your pocket for years. i thank you indefinetly for the past few days you have given to me. these days have been the best i can remember from all that has been my life. today is the day i hold once more, the feeling that is worse than any other i have felt. you are walking off with my heart again. as i sit here crying my tears away, i can only wish you the best and dream that someday you will come back to me again. i can only dream that you will stay. that your heart will finally rest with mine. i can never say that i will give up. my body, heart, mind, and soul fell in love with you the first day i had seen you with your adidas shirt all so many years ago. i love you AJ and i will miss you so much, as i have for so long before, i will continue to as long you have me wait. i have and always will wish the best for you. i prey you stay alive. i prey you can be content, if not happy, with or without me. can i give up ? this is not possible. always there for you, as long as you want me here for you. with love, Jonathan 050605 ... a chaotic gift to idealism what can i say ? I am sorry you leave me. I am sorry you have to. Do what has to be done! I am one of Gods unwanted children. I rose today to a day i wished was a dream. I rose today wishing that the past months worth of time had been a dream. I rose today, wishing it would be the same as tomorrow. I rose today knowing that today, was the end of yesterday. Today must go on. Tomorrow will come. I rose today knowing that you will only be with me in my dreams. I rose today... wishing... wishing i had not rose today. In my slumber, you were still with me. In my heart, you are still with me. in my mind, you are still with me. In my life, you have left, again. In our lives together, we know what we want. I believe we know we want each other. I want you. In our lives together, we never act. I believe we can have each other. I want you. In our lives together, we are not together. I think we need to ask. Will you stop just wanting me, and just be mine ? what can i say ?.... enjoy the ride. i'll be waiting for you at the end. maybe then we can get this over with. 050606 ... littledoseofperfection you're not crying alone. i didn't realize i still had any tears left. 050606 ... a chaotic gift to idealism you're not crying alone. i didn't realize i still had any tears left. 050619 ... captain_subtext just as i realize that i am alive, indicates the fact that i was dead for some time. 050619 ... freezerkitty What can I say to someone who wouldn't respond to me for two years? Someone who friends me on MySpace just to tease me, apparently. I said happy birthday just so he knew someone was thinking of him, and he finally said thanks. What can I say? 100104 what's it to you? who go blather from