weird_sensation unhinged you make me like being dirty 070413 ... pete i only feel more than a little stupid drunkenly messaging her, while she is sober. 070414 ... pete it didn't go that badly.. in other news i find it slightly strange that i have platonic reasons for almost everything. and for things that i do that i can't defend platonically aristotle or boethius usually stand up to support me. my inner neoplatonism is showing... 070414 ... unhinged when i wake up in the morning and can feel the ghost of your hands all over me, i wonder if at the same moment those memories disrupt your sleep; that maybe i am thinking of your hands all over me because you are thinking of putting your hands all over me or my thoughts could travel all that distance like light or god i want your hands on me what was supposed to be the end is only a beginning, of my molecules begging to be affected by your gravity. you, of all people, finally rescued me from my asshole_syndrome and my inferiority_complex. i used to tell myself i was better than that to convince myself it was true. don't_mistake_me you have always been a source of sweetness in my life. when you have imprisoned yourself for so long, it feels weird to be free. i do not need to let people walk all over me to prove that i am a good person. i must remind myself that compassion is not self_sacrifice. no, it's not. to abandon who you really are to make someone else happy does no good for anyone. the path begins with the INWARD journey. only after that journey is completed can the outward journey take place. my self has radically shifted in the past six weeks. that is truly a weird_sensation. 070414 ... unhinged i feel like a horny teenager more often than not these days 070414 ... unhinged to find your old self in the form of an old diary and realize many parts of that old self no longer exist 151107 what's it to you? who go blather from