we_love_you_endless_desire karl the weed feel better! 030914 ... imposter I love you too. 030914 ... Flowers from Safeway There are certain times in our lives that seem so unbearable. We think we'll never get through it. I know this as well as anyone. Just bear in mind, you are not alone. Try to find comfort in that. To answer a ztupid question of mine, the most depressed I've ever been was in 1997. I was living in a little studio apartment in Seattle with a chemical imbalance and an intraverted roommate. I dropped out of art college in favor of sitting in bed all day. There were some times I would stay in bed for several days straight, getting up only to go to the bathroom. On one occasion I went to the fridge and began to chug a pitcher of orange juice, which had been neglected since I rarely ate or drank. I noticed right away that it had gone rancid, but I finished the whole thing anyway because I just didn't CARE. Anyway, my point is that I survived. You are a well-loved person and we are all behind you. You will survive too. I promise 030914 ... endless desire see now this is something new. it's one thing to say that i will feel better one day. . .because i can say 'this too shall pass' but then to believe it and constantly not wonder 'when' or 'how' but just have faith that it will. . . is impossible. but my life is small and simple in comparison to so many others. my problems superficial and methods of handling them immature. thank you for support. some days, though, i'm just afraid i'll faint and fall and there won't be anyone behind me because i insisted to walk all alone. safeway, what did the orange juice do to you? i've had my taste of bad juice and i flipped out. . . how did you even. . .that's nuts. 030914 ... eyedream I have never seen the point of telling someone their future will be brighter people never struggle with the future there problems are always in the NOW so endless desire here is what I want to impart to you my little one: all you can do is be. simple be. look at yourself carefully see what is really there IS MORE THAN WHAT YOU SEE don't be so capricious (what does that mean?) that you actually assume that you know everything you've got inside of you for nobody knows that endless desire life is just one long unfolding. And you are unfolding. Sometimes it hurts sometimes life is unbearable but you must keep doing it or you will die you are loved safe sweet deep blink when the sun hits your eyelids don't forget that in case of an emergency JUST KEEP BREATHING JUST KEEP BREATHING kisses you on the forehead 030914 ... . . 031119 ... . just write your name always write your name 031120 ... fetal musings and don't forget about everyone who loves you, and if you think that nobody does you're wrong. AND I MEAN THAT. 031121 ... whitechocolatewalrus i love you. 040102 what's it to you? who go blather from