try_and_understand_me Norm Very challenging. 040129 ... Not the Daddy No. 040129 ... everyone else why? 040129 ... *silent screams Betcha you won't be able to. I bet it would be harder than you think. I bet you'd come to a lot of dead ends before you were finally on the right path. I bet you don't know what holds me up, or why I'm the way that I am. Or why I smile when my worlds crashing down on me, or why I cry when everythings perfect. Why I hide when I don't want to see. Why I hold so much inside and trust so few people with the key. Why I think the way that I do. Why I'm not like so many other people that you've come to know. They say that you have to love yourself before your able to love anyone else...if thats true in some twisted sense, does that also go for understanding? Just curious... 040130 ... Norm All of human kind is cursed. The ability to improve, greed, we are insatiable. It's funny, capitalism, materialism, atheism, promiscuity, these are the things that will destroy us. I do not worship a god, for I do not believe that one exists, although I do believe in religion, there is some truth in it. Religion, were ever it came from warned us of our end, it warned us of our nature. India, industry, billions, multiplication, want, TV. A monster will consume the planet and with its' hot and smoky breath it will burn up all the oxygen. It is a small world after all. I am the personification of human excess, perhaps I am the personification of humanity (If there were such a thing). Realizing that there is no after life, realizing what life is worth. Searching for meaning, that final goal, perfection. Searching for a point of gratification, a climax, an apocalypse? Searching for a proper ending... 040130 ... Norm My mind webs, cycles, like the earth. Like human kind, like mother earth, my mind is a globe with no proper ending. No recognizable beginning or edges. If there was a god it couldn't have been prepared for what it created. 040130 ... Norm Any art form, something as innocent and as ancient as communication, is just the rhythm of the universe dumbed down of human consumption 040130 ... Norm Ha ha. Imagine some poor fool out there must think that technology will be our salvation. The very likely chance that a person who exists on this planet actually believes that during some peak of human ingenuity, a solution will be made. Eureka! A cure for cancer, brakes for a runaway train, an end to the curse. What a shame that humanity is doomed. 040130 ... Norm Some details about Norm: I am very big and athletic. I have a very high pain threshold. I am an excellent fighter. I have a violent temper. I have an addictive personality. I am a recovering alcoholic. I suffer from high testosterone levels. I have already seen and experienced more than most ever will. I can't remember a time that I've ever failed. I am a sexual deviant. I can find pleasure in pain. I have an above average I.Q. I meditate and study many forms of martial arts. I love people, especially women. My father died about a month ago; he drowned when he fell off a ship off the coast of Japan. I'm not sure if I should be feeling something about it. He left me part of his estate, so now I am very wealthy. I am an entrepreneur in my own right, and I have developed my own fortune. Many people love me; they cried when my dad died. My mom loved my dad she didn't cry. Both my brother and my sister seem confused. People offer them condolences and they respond with shrugs and something like "I didn't really know him." This is usually sparks looks of disgust. I'm not really sure if I could cry. I believe that marijuana should be legalized. In reality I am mysterious. I love people's minds. I love the ability to manipulate them. Women are like beautiful riddles or puzzles. If done right an orgy can be a beautiful thing, and as such I think that anarchy could be a beautiful thing too, if done right. Imagine beautifully orchestrated chaos. I believe that an individual, a man alone, is insignificant. A tree with no one to hear it fall. From where I'm standing I can see the line between genius and insanity. I love to make them smile. I hate a lie. Women love me, men fear me. I believe that can not be understood. 040130 ... but can you try_to_understand_yourself 040131 ... Norm Scars, fighting, intelligence, sex, on_love. 040201 ... Norm An event is the catalyst for change. 040201 ... BloodRedVelvet Who is Norm? Is it really important or is he just someone who dropped out of the sky? I came early because people might watch the game, but it seems useless. I guess you will find it if you want or need. I am so perturbed by these lengthy lectures on how a person should live, who are any of you to judge save for yourselves? I need at least two mill to live more interestingly enough for you, without it, forget it. I don't want to get stuck with who remains, yes lonliness is a BEAUTIFUL TRIP compared to being stuck with the final asses. Got it? I am an island unto myself, but no no there are plenty of folks to read my dears. Looks like seclusion is not so empty after all. Who are you trying to impress? Do you think mary poppins is trying to impress people with her sheer good fun and exciting activities? Is she trying to make herself more interesting? Think twice dears. Love, LOVE KISS, KISS 040201 ... ambermoon as hard as you try, you will fail. I wish that i understood myself. there are so many ways that i am it would take you your lifetime to understand. But by all meens please try. 040217 ... spiffy i dare you. 040822 ... icy why would i ask you to, dare you to, encourage you to if i cannot understand myself? will you give me insight as to how i work, what makes me tick? if i am unable, how could i expect to demand understanding from someone else? trying implies failure - that goes for me as well. 051004 ... anne-girl just try ask me where i'm coming from, where I've been why i'm being this way this is just the way i am and I'll try to understand you See, the only reason we don't get along is: this is how i am, and i'm not going to change and this is how you are, and neither are you and we conflict i understand, so you don't have to 051004 ... e d n p "It went right by me -- At the time it went over my head I was looking out the window I should have looked At your face instead It went right by me -- Just another wall There should have been a moment When we let our barriers fall I never meant What you're thinking -- That is not what I meant at all... Well I guess we all Have these feelings We can't leave unreconciled Some of them burned on our ceilings Some of them learned as a child The things that we're concealing Will never let us grow Time will do its healing You've got to let it go Closed for my protection -- Open to your scorn Between these two directions My heart is sometimes torn I lie awake with my secrets Spinning around my head Something that somehow Escaped me -- Something you shouldn't have said I was looking out the window I should have looked At your face instead... I find no absolution In my rational point of view Maybe some things are instinctive But there's one thing you could do You could try to understand me -- I could try to understand you..." 051004 what's it to you? who go blather from