trembling_hands birrrrdmaaaaaad - eeeyaaah! fell of the smoke wagon again tonight and had only my fifth cigarette in the last fourteen months, after discovering that i had an unfinished pack of cloves still lingering about on a shelf jeeesus i've either got a bitchin case of the nicotene shakes or i am having a mother of a hypoglycemic episode. whether to look for glucose in some form or to ride out the shakes, that is the question 030527 ... unhinged i've always had this nervous tick. i always screwed up chem labs in high school because i couldn't measure out the chemicals without shaking. but i did discover the wonders of collanapin ; no more shakes for me. to put that to rest, it was a wonderful feeling. he used to get so upset when my hands would shake. 'dude, these pills aren't going to knock her out like they knock you out. she actually needs them.' too bad the goddamn doctors won't listen to me. 030527 ... niska i noticed, after things said, that i wasn't scared, worried or axious. i was angry. my hands were shaking, and nothing i could do would stop them. the fist i made only contributed to my tension, and to be honest, if he was within reach, he'd have at least three teeth missing from the right side of his mouth. not that it could have possibly made im uglier... i'm all about the the hook. 030527 ... niska correction him 030527 ... stork daddy i liked im...i read it like you had a cockney accent. i figured you for an overhand right girl. 030528 ... splinken I love the South, I miss the South. 030528 ... niska hehe! cockney... overhand right? why's that? 030529 ... stork daddy it's just less restrained, it has a wild almost unpredictable arch and it hits with fury, distracting the opponent so that inside work can be done. of course it also leaves you open to precision strikes or evasive maneuvers. so that's why. 030529 ... xlsk harch! the pimpnastmanidbles! do as the q: p: and mind! you can't lick your foorhead! No fucking way. fooorhear! be thy not forehearing? what pabst do thy neighbors covet? 030529 ... bible scholar satan is jesus! 030529 ... satan am not 030529 ... i know it all and harry belafonte started the civil war 030529 ... sean connery yesh! good form, i shay. 030529 ... girl_jane Is it ok to touch you? 030529 ... lokkust mary-anne with the shaky hands 030529 ... niska gee, thanks for giving it so much thought, stork daddy. :P 030531 ... stork daddy i was just acting in self-defense 030531 ... /anon I did the same thing in labs. I always shake and screw up the measurements. Also my left cheek always twitches when i am nervous. meh 030531 ... endless desire trembling hands shaking, quivering but not in fear for there is very little i fear anymore (except maybe that the girl will come out of the television and attack me in my sleep) but more because i know that in a few hours, i will see you. its enough to make me tremble with excitement anticipation like the little girl i am. and when i know ill see you soon. . . just the two of us alone, more than just my hands tremble. take that where you wish-- if anywhere at all 030531 ... unhinged it's been awhile since i had shaking problems; it's also been awhile since i smoked weed regularly. i don't think that is a coincidence. you called me today. i missed the call because i had my ringer off for class and never turned it back on. i called you as soon as i got the missed call; you didn't leave a message. it was only 20 minutes. i'm sorry i couldn't pick up the fucking phone when you called; maybe you know how i feel now. you didn't pick up the phone when i called you back. i left you a message but i'm figuring you aren't going to call me back. why the fuck did you call me? this cycle is about as regular and annoying as my period. and my hands have been shaking ever since. what do you want? 031018 ... Death of a Rose deleris tremors Is what I have every afternoon. The only thing making them stop is to pull a keyboard under my hands and start to ramble, blather, whatever. developed a nasty little eye twitch too. think its freaking my boss out. I wish trembling hands would touch me. 031018 ... nomatter my hands quiver and I cannot speak 031018 ... oldephebe pain..unsesolved anguish..unredeemed things the body holds all of it..i used to stutter horribly until a therapist helped me methodically conquer it..and then in my early twenties it resurfaced... i meditated and ran through the catacombs of my mind such that it is..and saw the silhouette that still led pains parade up and down in me..grinning and flitting here and there.. fed from the treasure of Light and confronted some unresolved things and walked myself through those old and not so vague paths of yore ... spoke healing words to my then self.. blah blah any way yeah ..the stuttering thing only now very very rarely manifests..maybe a syllable here and there during exigent circumstances ..yea our bodies hold the memories and the pain ..all the splinters in our souls...they gotta be answered and dealt with or man ..our bodies can become this twisted tapestry of harrow..body and mind and soul .. yeah i can so definately relate ... 031018 ... love & hate My hands tremble at the thought of you, they always have, they always will. They tremble all day and all night, sometimes i forget they are trembling, then i remember your smile or your kiss or your touch and i notice them trembling. What is it that you are doing to me, why do i tremble, why do i think of you every day, why do i love you so and why dont you love me enough to make you tremble? 040423 what's it to you? who go blather from