to_the_human_race
Dafremen To the human race:

I think of taking you all back into my heart somedays.

To hold you all and let you know how "alright" it's going to be.

To spare you at least the sharp sting of my lectures and criticisms, the hurt and self-loathing you feel, if only for a moment.

To give liberally again in a sincerely heartfelt way, ignoring for a moment the pain of past betrayals and betrayers, knowing only the momentary joy of giving without expectation, and having that be enough.

To save you all the considerable inconvenience of finding your way through the pseudo-attitude that is my shield and my solace and to allow you free unrestricted access to what lies within.(They tell me it's quite nice, or at least they USED to.)

To set your mind at ease when nothing seems certain and the future seems less hopeful than it does frightening. To be your eyes when I can and your common sense when you need some and, no matter what, to support you in your decisions whether I agree with them or not.

To make you laugh when laughter seems unlikely, to make you smile when you're feeling down, and to help you feel appreciated when you're feeling quite the opposite.

To revel in your company, whatever your mood, and appreciate the you that you are, whoever that may turn out to be, simply because I adore you for your frailties and flaws, without which you ...wouldn't be YOU.

To bring it all into focus for you without making you feel inadequate, help it all make sense without making you feel stupid.

To let you know that you are NOT alone in this silly society with it's stupid rules and show you ways to tolerate the stupidity and have fun with the rules.

To be there for you, whatever your needs, for that truly is my heart's one desire...to help you.

Yes I think about you all a great deal and care for you very deeply, longing to let you see my mind's eye, my heart's desire.

But after all these years the scars of a thousand betrayals and betrayers have become a wall that protects and surrounds me.

Some days I'd love to take you ALL back into my heart, but they say that for every refuge there is a price to be paid, this one has cost me my very freedom.

For I can no more let you in, than let myself out and besides...

I only have to think about it somedays.
020712
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the human race durn. 020712
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IKC 56-80 you have been a real disappointment, effective immediately we are cancelling this experiment and burning the room

sorry for the inconvenience,
Sincerely,
The Management
Alien Biotechnics Inc.
020729
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JESSEMO SOMTIMES i hate you, for all the ways you've led me astray, with your ugly lies rapped in pretty boxes as you whiper to me delights i know i can never have.
and it's you as a whole, so lost within yourself, as you lauhg at me for at leaste trying, what merit does your breath esteem.
Somtimes i LOVE you, for in all your errors i see myself, i am the human race, every error that has ever tempted me has besought you. you are in this together, sometimes i get angry for you, somtimes (rare it is) i cry for you, when you seem so happy among your self deciet, for i was you.
WE are a canser, a poison, we breath iniqueties, in and out, in and out. like the falling rain our tresspasses have been so accepted. some would say the worst crime there is would to bring a child in this, and you hide such uglyness with money, as you petition to build a new dog shelter....
SCREW THE PUPIES...
NOW THIS IS A ENIGMA THAT BURNS IN ME, FOR I AM YOU. BUT LET US TRY TO BE. SOMTHING BETTER THAN THAT OF WICH WE WERE TOUGHT, WHEN WE TURN ON OUR TV.

THIS WAS STUPID TOO
020730
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