thinking_about_you
jane been thinking about you
your records are here
your eyes are on my wall
your teeth are over there
but i'm still no one, and you're now a star what do you care?
been thinking about you, and there's no rest
should i still love you still
see you in bed but i'm playing with myself
and what do you care when i'm not there
all the things you got
all the things you need
who bought your cigarettes?
who bribed the company to come and see you, honey?
been thinking about you
so how can you sleep?
these people aren't your friends
they're paid to kiss your feet
they don't know what i know
and why should you care when i'm not there?
all the things you got
all the things you need
who bought your cigarettes?
who bribed the company to come and see you?
been thinking about you

[radiohead]
040104
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jezabel when i would much rather not.
just when i was starting to find distraction,
you rose up, grinning. i hated you
in that moment. you win again.
040105
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unhinged but i know it's of no use. you forgot about me when you hung up the phone. erased my number. put some coke up your nose. you are right. your life is your own. but for a minute it was mine too. disdainful . this is why he called me an emotional stalker. and i guess he's partially right. cause i just want you to be happy. you showed me the way out but you kept yourself there. you won't be happy that way. but you are right. you can do what you want. and so can i. and from far away, i'll always be thinking about you. wondering if you made it out safe. knowing you didn't. 040105
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sylphide leaving me here with this raw, empty emotion they call heartache and reading every blather what it was about my soul you wanted to be so far from. 040105
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sylphide arg

i drift here alone with nothing to do. i keep looking for patterns and the world just happens.
040105
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Bizzar Where does the day lead me? Back to my home, or to your arms? Never really matters. You leave me with thoughts that warm me for days. And dreams that shine light in the dark, and get me through the night alone. Dont think I dont see the beauty in all the times Ive wanted to just give up. Just to fall back into your trap with a single word passing your lips.

You always cast my mind to wander, and wind up back on you. Wondering what you could be doing at this exact moment... thinking of me? Nothing makes me smile, quite like slipping into an image of you: the way that you laugh, the way laughing makes your eyes glow, your eyes when they're caught staring at me.

So many ways, you are beautiful... its no wonder Im never bored in thought, and I will be forever contempt drifting into you.
040105
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LiVE iT it's called magic,
you describe it in such a perfect way.
if there were ever any words to use you've used the only ones.
feelings like that never die they just keep you going like a continuous bass line.
040105
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