things_ive_learned_so_far
endless desire
i
don't
sleep
much
.
i
just
think
.
my
brain
made
me
without
a
pause
button
and
it
really
doesn't
know
when
to
let
up
.
but
i
was
thinking
about
things
ive
learned
so
far
in
my
life
and
i
realized
that
i
have
figured
out
many
lessons
that
people
much
older
than
me
are
still
trying
to
understand
and
i
felt
kind
of
proud
of
myself
and
who
i
am
become
...which
is
rare
for
me
.
so
i
thought
i'd
fill
blather
today
with
something
different
.
not
necessarily
all
positive
...but
not
completely
negative
.
im
in
school
.
i
base
my
life
by
grades
.
im
only
in
10th
grade
but
ive
learned
a
lot
.
not
close
to
all
but
im
trying
.
1st (
grade
)(or
grade
1
for
eyedream
and
doar
--the
canadians
)-
i
learned
what
sadness
was
and
the
word
'divorce'
and
what
it
was
like
to
live
without
my
papa
.
i
learned
how
to
embrace
change
and
how
life
can
get
better
.
how
to
love
new
people
and
new
lives
and
new
families.
i
learned
how
to
climb
a
trees
and
play
video
games
.
2nd-
i
learned
that
if
i
wanted
people
to
love
me
i
had
to
please
them
.
if
i
wanted
my
parents
to
pay
attention
to
me
,
i
had
to
be
perfect
.
if
i
wanted
to
not
get
in
trouble
,
i
had
to
be
silent
.
but
i
just
had
too
much
to
say
.
i
learned
that
i
wanted
to
do
everything
and
that
i
wasn't
afraid
of
anyone
at
all
.
3rd
-
i
learned
that
i
didn't
like
the
way
i
looked
.
i
learned
what
a
scale
was
and
who
i
wanted
to
be
like
.
i
learned
that
school
and
good
grades
were
everything
.
4th-
i
learned
how
to
talk
with
adults
and
have
them
listen
(
sometimes
).
and
i
learned
how
to
diet
and
how
to
do
flips
on
the
monkey
bars
and
how
to
swim
real
fast
on
the
team
.
i
learned
that
it
was
fun
to
walk
on
the
grass
field
by
myself
and
sing
songs
and
make
up
stories
and
chains
of
flowers
.
i
learned
that
the
other
kids
didn't
care
and
i
learned
to
lose
a
spelling
bee
because
the
substitute
teacher
asked
me
the
wrong
word
.
5th-
i
learned
how
important
kindness
was
and
i
accidently
threw
up
in
class
.
so
then
i
learned
what
a
good
sense
of
humor
was
and
that
i
could
make
people
laugh
by
reacting
well
to
jokes
.
i
was
the
bunt
of
the
joke
more
often
then
not
but
i
learned
how
to
laugh
really
hard
at
myself
and
at
life
.
6th-
i
learned
what
the
in
crowd
was
and
how
important
it
was
to
be
part
of
it
.
i
learned
how
to
fall
into
what
everyone
else
wants
me
to
do
and
i
learned
that
sexual
humor
was
funny
and
that
bad
words
were
cool
.
and
that
homework
could
be
brutal
and
that
everyone
cries
because
when
my
teacher
got
really
sick
,
even
daniel
,
the
tough
kid
,
started
crying
during
the
middle
of
a
report
.
he
never
let
us
talk
about
it
afterwards
though
.
7th
-
i
learned
that
it
was
wrong
to
walk
alone
or
to
try
anything
new
without
a
pack
of
friends
.
i
learned
that
good
grades
weren't
everything
and
that
it's
no
fun
to
be
the
good
girl
.
but
i
also
really
started
to
take
religion
seriously
in
discovering
what
i
wanted
believe
,
not
what
i
was
brought
up
to
believe
.
so
i
went
to
church
and
studied
and
made
a
lot
of
friends
.
and
then
i
learned
how
to
make
myself
throw
up
and
how
it
might
fit
my
life
real
well
.
8th-
i
learned
that
i
was
wrong
in
6th
grade
and
that
the
in
crowd
isn't
everything
.
i
learned
that
boys
liked
you
if
you
were
confident
and
i
learned
that
reputations
can
go
down
fast
even
if
you
didn't
do
anything
much
at
all
.
people
just
always
want
to
talk
.
9th-
i
learned
to
think
for
myself
.
how
to
be
different
and
how
to
be
ok
with
it
.
how
to
educate
myself
in
ideas
and
world
matters
so
i
could
have
an
opinion
.
then
i
learned
opinions
were
hard
to
come
by
because
both
sides
seem
valid
.
i
learned
what
"
love
"
was
and
how
much
it
hurts
.
i
learned
how
young
i
was
and
how
little
i
knew
.
and
i
found
blather
.
and
i
learned
how
to
cut
myself
and
how
it
felt
good
.
i
learned
what
real
friends
were
and
how
i'd
rather
have
one
than
a
pack
of
people
who
didn't
care
.
10th
-
im
learning
what
sadness
is
and
how
much
i
can
appreciate
the
little
things
because
i
feel
miserable
.
good
days
are
worth
gold
.
a
sunset
holds
more
worth
than
achievements
.
family
holds
more
value
than
a
"
social
life
."
and
for
once
,
im
not
using
other
people
to
complete
me
but
completely
me
with
myself
and
my
beliefs
.
i
learned
how
to
drive
.
and
i
think
im
learning
how
to
express
myself
and
deal
with
a
few
other
things
i
learned
when
i
was
little
that
i
didn't
write
down
because
i
don't
want
to
.
but
that's
mostly
what
i've
learned
.
i
hope
i'll
add
a
hell
of
a
lot
more
.
i
hope
maybe
other
people
will
too
.
maybe
i'll
be
okay
.
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