the_saddest_feeling jete The saddest feeling is not knowing what you want, but knowing you couldn't have it anyways 010619 ... black-dyed gel product happiness... oh wait, happiness is the happiest feeling 010619 ... nemo i dont know what it is, but i think i saw it on his face yesterday. 010620 ... fallenangel him not being able to look at me anymore. not seeing myself in his eyes. wanting to help and not being able to. his selfishness. her ignorance and intentional plans. lies. my love. 010620 ... unique butterfly when you love someone and they don't love you. 010620 ... ditto. when you love someone and they don't love you. 010624 ... yummychuckle knowing that my friends definition of the saddest feeling is specific enough for me to understand shes talking about me. that she tries to help me and she cant and thats the saddest feeling. and I MAKE it happen its my fault. 010707 ... Moe ...when you know happiness just isnt good enough. 010709 ... psychobabe there are lots- -when you want something so bad but you cant have it -when you love someone and they dont love you back -depression those are just a very few but there are many more 010830 ... psychobabe there are lots- -when you want something so bad but you cant have it -when you love someone and they dont love you back -depression -being alone those are just a very few but there are many more 010830 ... the one knowing that its just another night of fucking someone you know you dont really love. 011004 ... silentbob pain after forgiveness 011005 ... silentbob makes me sick to the heart 011005 ... distorted tendencies When my heart starts to chip away and crack ever so lightly and makes me shake because i can't cry. 011006 ... daydream believer hopelessness 011006 ... Casey loneliness 011006 ... Sonya the sullen feline When you love someone and they don't love you back, or moreover, when you love someone and they say they love you but don't/never really mean it. Loneliness. Hopelessness. Being used. Feeling cheap. Being taken for granted. Being ignored. Loss of anything or anyone you hold dear. When you realize what you have after it's going or already gone. Being pushed away and shut out. Not being able to help those you love. Uselessness. When absolutely every good thing going for you (and we all have at least one good thing in our lives) doesn't mean a damn thing aka. apathy. Being harassed for something beyond your control...for me it's always been the shape of my eyes and my skintone, go figure. When you're so pain stricken that you can't even get the words out...luckily I'm not there yet. 011010 ... daxle losing someone you love and having no power to bring them back to you 011011 ... Casey Looking at a friend while he lies in his casket...no longer a friend, but a fading memory. 011011 ... mightbebipolar having a big load of shit knocking at your back door and being at McDonald's. 011011 ... niki not laughing 011012 ... three words the_saddest_feeling the_meaninglessness_of_life timeless 061006 ... Chris aka Christ without the cross knowing that you are faking it. worrying that people would see that you are faking it. Constantly on the defensive because you have to overcompensate to block the truth from coming out. Worrying that you are giving yourself away even more by overcompensating. Running away. Hiding so that people won't see what's underneath, believing that people won't love you if they knew what was underneath. Crying inside. Dying inside. Lying outside so that no one will know the truth. No one can bear the truth. no one will understand the truth. Not knowing what's underneath the truth. Not knowing if the truth is truth at all. Realizing that nothing really matters people won't love you anyways no matter how fake you are, no matter how loving you try to be, in the end, they will choose themselves. And realizing that you probably will too, because you don't believe in them, you don't really trust them, you're not really loving them. You will choose the darknes over the light because you are selfish. You can't look pass your own pain and see the pain of another. its easier to judge them and make them evil for what they done to you and you shut them and everyone else out. The saddest feeling is knowing that you are a hypocrite. 061006 ... blown cherry I'm such a jerk. 061009 what's it to you? who go blather from