stamina
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I
have
neither
the
stamina
nor
the
time
to
post
as
much
as
some
of
you
do
on
blather
.
I'd
like
to
,
but
I
just
can't
.
This
evening
is
the
first
time
I've
posted
on
blather
in
a
few
days
.
I'd
like
to
post
every
evening
,
but
unfortunately
I
end
up
sleeping
sometimes
.
All
I
know
right
now
is
that
I
don't
want
to
go
back
to
work
this
summer
,
but
I
have
to
.
I'd
rather
blather
. Goddammit,
blather
is
like
a
cult
without
a
leader
;
you
get
sucked
in
without
any
promises
and
stay
because
you
have
nothing
else
.
If
I
were
a
more
organized
person
,
I'd
post
all
the
time
,
even
though
I
don't
have
much
to
say
.
Maybe
if
I
can
get
my
head
straight
,
I'll
let
you
people
into
my
mind
for
a
while
.
However
,
most
of
the
time
I
don't
even
like
to
be
there
.
010617
...
In_Bloom
I've
got
it
No
choice
but
to
let
it
run
Words
pass
in
one
ear
and
out
the
other
Even
my
tears
have
no
sting
left
to
them
Pretend
to
yourself
I
feel
your
crushing
weight
The
small
thing
behind
my
eyes
clicks
away
It
sizes
you
up
as
you
imagine
you're
tearing
me
down
Go
ahead
and
try
I've
got
stamina
I've
made
it
so
081110
...
In_Bloom
And
here
I
am
Still
pushing
Wanting
so
badly
to
have
something
worth
trusting
in
to
receive
a
lifetime
of
my
good
intents
and
love
Some
days
I
want
to
just
say
"
Fuck
it
all
"
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who
go
blather
from
