spiralling_through_eternity whitechocolatewalrus filling_silence with glittering_dead_breaths. they shimmer_and_rot swirling_down like snow_on_apples to become a skeleton. my eyes_like_glass, i see you clutching_acorns to your chest. beneath_the_surface there is no_more_room for me. so turn me upside_down. i don't deserve anything. i_am not_special dear_everyone all this twirling and whirling; i_feel_sick. i_am dying_to_breathe and i_don't_care_at_all the_eyes_of_heaven are so_cold show_me; who_am_i_now? dead_stars_chaos_barbedwiredpillowcases. sprinkling warmth upon my nose but i_am not getting_warm. i don't_need duck_skeletons. i don't_need a midnight_pill. i_am_falling spiralling_through_eternity. i can't even catch_my_mind. delete_me; i have no_reason to live. 031230 ... mon thing_is i tried to recall what i forgot i find myself i remember finding the loss what i can't see i try but i can't make me go away a lingering i can't make go away stealing filled my life with less and then more more lessons on felling a tree 031230 ... egger . 031231 ... marked . 031231 ... whitechocolatewalrus oh_icecube_sky tell me what you know. i_need_a_hug. this day has gone on far too long. i long for brightness a shining of stars in the sky. my wishes never come true; i_hate_you. 040101 what's it to you? who go blather from