something_is_crawling_inside_me COLDandBLUEkitty i don't know why. but i want to cry. i haven't eaten besides a few crackers in the car. free food was offered to me, and i ignored the growlings of my stomach and denyed the offer. everyone thinks there's something wrong. they keep asking and asking.. and that makes it worse. you'll only fucking talk to me when it looks like i'm going to cry? fuck you! i'm not going to! (at least not in front of you) i feel something crawling inside me. and i realize.. perhaps i had a good time this weekend. and i let myself be happy.. and that's bad. i can't. when i'm happy.. what follows is pain. it's hard to discribe unless you experience it often.. like.. me.. and.. ::you:: ::your:: best friend fucked her. her- someone who i'd call a friend, but i'm not all that fond of. she's fake, skanky, cheep, and entirely TOO blonde- PUN INTENDED. so.. if he can stoop to that. why can't ::you::? she got a night. i don't even get a fucking phone call. i gave you my life, my soul, my everything. 3 fucking years of my life.. wasted- who knows how much longer this has to go on. but i'm sick of breathing in the air you force me too.. with out even knowing it. i'm sick of staring at pictures.. warped with tears. i'm sick of your friends. i'm sick of the music you intoduced me to. i'm sick of breathing. 010103 ... silentbob something is crawling inside me and it wants to give meghan a hug she gives the best hugs. 010104 ... magicforest and that something is a question 041111 what's it to you? who go blather from