something_i_can_never_have silentbob a girl that hasn't been marred by your touch corrupted by your char-black fingertips ruined by your heart your words your total lack of life and that's why i need to escape 010121 ... sabbie i just want... mmm. trent. 010122 ... j_blue probably true happiness which is better i suppose i suppose 010123 ... chanaka you 010124 ... psychobabe i still recall the taste of your tears... echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears... my favorite dreams of you still wash ashore... scrapeing through my head till i dont wanna sleep any more You make this all go away You make this all go away I'm down to just one thing and i'm starting to scare myself You make this all go away You make this all go away I just want something... I just want something i can never have You always were the one to show me how... Back then i couldnt do the things that I can do now... This thing is slowly takeing me apart.. Gray would be the color... IF I HAD A HEART! come on tell me! You make this all go away You make this all go away I'm down to just one thing and i'm starting to scare myself You make this all go away You make this all go away I just want something... I just want something i can never have In this place it seems like such a shame... Though it all looks different now i konw its still the same... Everywhere i look your all i see... Just the fadeing fucking reminder... of who I used to be COME ON TELL ME! You make this all go away You make this all go away I'm down to just one thing and i'm starting to scare myself you make this all go away you make this all go away I just want soemthing... I just want soemthing i can never have I just want soemthing i can never have... NIN~ 010501 ... firehunden ah yes.....good choice, i agree 010502 ... psychobabe thanks 010502 ... unique butterfly ricky is what i can never have. you know i'm really making myself depressed. i shouldn't talk about him... hi katie. i see you wrote right about me. weird. i can here by accident. 010602 ... unhinged writing it here for the thousandth time isn't going to change the impossibility of it all. i'd really like a strad. then i would sound good even on a shitty day. keep dreaming nicole... 010602 ... mushroomman All kneel and pay homage to Trent... hehehehe 010602 ... Casey a life friends to be good looking a date not to be so pitiful 010602 ... Sol um, ovaries? not that I particularly want them. It just sprung to mind. I could have some in a jar i guess? 010603 ... Sol at the moment it seems like any form of rewarding (non platonic) relationship, which is becoming quite depressing 010603 ... forever i can never have every guy that i think i love, and i can never have any guy that i want. I can never have a year of happyness, i can never have what i want which is for all of my senior friends to stay. becuase i have three more years of this town to live while they are gone 010603 ... crystal there's this guy i want so bad. he's very sexy & sweet. he can dance really good 2. i watch him all tha time. he skateboards every now & again. i c him all tha time cuz he's my brother's friend. he just thinks of me as my brother's little sista. it's really frustrating... 010604 ... psychobabe heh isnt this a good blather page. i love it cuz you say things but then you feel so fucking down it suxz. But i can still have my things i can never have Life A pancreas that works Happiness-well not total Love-seems to hard to get.. **A DAY THAT IS ALLLLL NIGHT** but other than that i have much more, just cant think of em:s 010817 ... MollyCule hey psychobabe - if you can get the pancreas-that-works hookup, i could use one too. 010818 ... dB Just one more chance. To come back again and make it better. Make me better. Maybe become what everyone wants me to be. So many hopes lost, so many dreams shattered. So many friends gone. Just one more chance. I'd give it all for one last chance. If I had powers of great unlimit, I'd stop the world, put it right, and re-spin it. 010819 ... unhinged yes, sol if you ever accquire ovaries keep them in a jar. i was naturally blessed with them and there is no other place that i would rather keep them than inside a jar. 010819 ... monadh memories shape our past give form and reason regret and loss arouse warm sensations of happiness found and gained so bitterly cast away and retrieved again in some black rain that falls or rose tree that blooms in our memories wish breeds disdain seeking roots we cannot escape from our paths leave endless tracks in the snow our falling remembrance remorse and nostalgia mixed like blood and wine the garden is closing in vines cling to us and keep us, wrapping their painted twists around our emotions the mirth of our souls in endless motion so transfixed as though a constellation in the night sky were I to live again , in the infinite running sea, turning wheel I would hold again all of these sweet memories alive rebuilding the ruins of a distant and nearly forgotten age the castle stones we laid fortress walls we set in countless waves of solidarity when all is said, done, and played the memories gone and the hope fled this moment is all I take with me I cannot hold the rain nor break the tide 010820 ... Gollum a females orgasm, yes precious, a juicy wet one. 010820 ... psychobabe molly cule you have a pancreas that doesnt work either? i'm guessing diabetes. Yea it really suxz. Most people think that since you have that disease that you can pass it along to other through blood and other bodily actions. WHICH IS NOT TRUE!!!! heh but yea if only more people knew more about it before they opened their stereotypical mouths, oh well w/b 010822 ... Aimee a normal boyfriend. 010822 ... niki boobs...that's pretty much it 011010 ... Sonya Peace of mind, happiness of the heart, warmth from a hug that won't subside, someone who won't take me for granted, someone who won't run or push when the world is at its bleakest, self purpose, a cluster of stars that I can look at any given time of the day, a flower that never wilts, a threshold for unimaginable pain, unconditional lasting love. 011010 ... distorted tendencies Peace. It's all turmoil 'round here. 011010 ... kingsuperspecial chocolate milk wait, what the fuck am I talking about? there's some chocolate milk in the fridge RIGHT NOW!!!! :: overwhelmed with joy :: 011010 ... Norm If there is something I can never have somebody better tell me before I find it and eat it. 011011 ... kingsuperspecial I'd think if they told you that would make you go find it and eat on purpose. you're kinda stubborn like that. 011011 ... transatlantic Him. I want Him. I want the chance to make Him happy, even if it's only for an hour. Then for Him to go back to his life & me to what's left of mine. And never have to think about it again. That's what I want. Something I can never have. Him. 011011 ... starved reciprocity i am stuck being (and remaining) the outward motion that connects to nothing 020526 ... Diabla alota things i can never have the top 10 10) Lamborgini Diablo vt 6.0 9) a trust worthy boy friend who likes to cuddle 8) a good singing voice 7) my own horse(I'm picky about horses, i've been ridding as long as i can remember) 6) more clothes 5) more money 4) to fly 3) i hate trying to EXPLAIN my feelings i want people to just simply understand them. 2) if/when i do have kids i want to stay thin 1) never to be left alone ahhh to relize that we want soo much more than we could ever have....what a feeling, eh? 030507 ... werewolf He would see glimpses of his father sometimes. A blur at a stopsign in a beat up station wagon as our car sped by at 65. Walking fast away at a supermarket, disappearing as he left the aisle. A person nine rows ahead at a concert or a movie who just won't turn around and who disappears in the confusion at the end. 030507 ... no reason ireland in my bedroom 030507 ... ireland and why's that lass? 030507 ... TalviFatin Happiness Love A Child Freedom Success Sanity 031021 ... Death of a Rose Oh....I want Ireland in my living room and Scotland can be the library and England can be the dining room, and france can be the toilet and germany can be the fireplace and spain can be the bathroom and italy can be the guest room..... Don't even ask abou the others. 031021 ... Death of a Rose oh shit...I hope spell checker is lurking around..... please don't look... 031021 ... blather logic check isn't 031021 ... ClairE The problem is, I wish someone would tell me I couldn't have it. Ever. 031021 ... Ivory a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be 050927 ... hsg1437 in the background of this song you can hear the distinct sound of a double_barreled_shotgun firing and reloading -as it's being said, "you make this all go away..." [boom boom chet-chet] "im down to just one thing and im starting to scare myself." 070313 ... ditto hah ? 070313 ... Jedi my computer has been possessed by the devil where's Luke Skywalker? 070313 ... Christ without the cross I wish I could have her trust. I wish I could have her love and her presence with me always. But i won't cry over spilled milk. Those are one of the things i need to let go. 070314 ... Risen I walked past a couple kissing earlier, and it made my heart break. 140426 what's it to you? who go blather from