somebody_love_me notme ? ok ? ! thanks ! not really me 030909 ... notme it_gurgled_out i couldn't stop i lost my tongue . 030909 ... blown cherry I want to feel special again, not just like a comfy and reliable pair of jeans. 030911 ... x so i'll never have to figure out how to stand on my own 030911 ... x because i'm riding the bus and all the seats are taken and the hand rails are all taken and no one wants to hold me and they'll be mad if i fall on them. I look ahead to anticipate what i will have to accomodate next but you can never quite tell. so_alone 031013 ... :( i wish you didnt hate me... 031013 ... huh? who wishes who didn't hate who? 031013 ... oldephebe hi x, sorry if i'm introduding..but please be wary of looking for someone else to be your ballast 'cause..man emotional extortion and exploitation..so easy for a scumbag to insidiously excavate your being..gradation by almost imperceptable gradation..just a little thing i've learned the hard way.. peace... 031013 ... nomme i was in my cookie_monster shirt the one i used to wear and wear playing in a garage by myself playing games from inside i saw a bird fly into the window a little blue bird it saw me i thought it was coming to play with me like my shadow but it didn't see the barrier the thin old glass barely hanging broken mixed with wings that's the first death of something made of flesh and blood the first death i can remember witnessing maybe i was three or four it's difficult to remember i couldn't prevent it was my fault i saw it happen i was all alone i cried my tears the little bird blood and glass flaking white paint frame bird in hand with glass and blood buried it in the backyard in the garden where i learned all about cloud animals where i realized the difference between red and black ants how good mud can feel on the skin and how easy it is to lose beautiful things 031014 ... effete oldephebe nomme..that was heart breaking..man the scripture of your soul sometimes really rends the veil of a really studied cynics creed..carefully i scoop the plaster from the kiln and fashion my mask of stone..and yet your beauty breaths hurled out of the blue cut down these ramparts... and with each cut i bleed to feed once more upon heartache ... 031015 ... Syrope because the line between thinking about death and fantasizing about it is getting blurry again. it's not even your fault. 031015 ... Dafremen Hope you've hung on to your cookie monster shirt like you've clung to that memory. You seem like the kind of person who knows how to appreciate a good cookie monster shirt like very few others. 031015 ... Lemon_Soda I want love to be a total dedication. I want to think of her everyday, smile everytime I see her, and want to say I love her every time I talk. I want to live for her, breath for her, shape my world around her... ...but I haven't found her yet... won't somebody love me? 031015 ... Death of a Rose like the future should love the past i know i've been infatuated, but haven't shared breath with any of her blood. damnation seems to be a love plunging me down the toilet. Flush. 031015 ... cupcake quick! before i fade away. 031015 ... somebody i already do got lots of hugs tonight from my angel :) PS anyone heard of carvin jones? 031015 ... kenobi I'm not so sure it's possible. 031021 ... sirflaccid God Damn It! I am so scared that i nee this. Yes, I said need. I feel like I have nothing to live for if I don't have anyone to live for. THAT IS SO SICK! Sometimes it is true. Nobody to be good for, nobody to be better for, that is the way I feel. It is really starting to piss me off. 031021 ... seventeen beer can make me dizzy if I manage to smuggle enough mexican beers past the border (my door), that is. So I have everything else I needed in my life, somebody love me, please. I mean love me love me, not like me love me, not obsess over me love me, not pretend to love me. Somebody LOVE me. 031022 ... notme please and thanks and please and thanks 031227 ... blah-ze i would ask, but someone might take it up out of pity, and i never liked being pitied. 031228 ... whitechocolatewalrus i can't even love myself, how can i expect someone else to love me? 031228 ... Syrope i've been lying to myself for too long i'm not ok it's not going to be ok but everyone's convinced i worked so hard to make them believe me. i thought i could work things out on my own but now i'm just trapped here inside 040515 ... notme im so tired 040515 ... megan i'm sick of being alone already. today would have been 2 and a half years exactly. i shouldn't be thinking of that now. but it was the first thing on my mind when i woke up. i wanted to call you and cry. yet again, yes. i'm very good at it, don't you agree? i wanted to ask if you were happy now, if you had found what you were looking for. if you knew exactly how much you tear me apart. but i can't. because that would make me the weak person, and we can't have that. do you remember being together? do you remember it often? i didn't for one month. then it all kind of hit me like a train, you left, you're gone, and i am terribly alone. where are those sweet kisses? where's the hugs? and the love you most, most perfect, love you bunches and bunches, sexiest? NEED YOU MOST, WANT YOU MOST? i guess i won the ultimate game, why aren't i happy? so, please, smebody love me. somebody prove to me that there are people in this world who make promises they can keep, and who can love me. 040515 ... poet no 040515 ... minnesota_chris megan you gotta get boys off your mind. you're a boyaholic. 040516 ... megan haha yeahhh 040516 ... megan it's worse at night during the day i'm fine 040516 ... Syrope lots of things are worse at night 040524 ... Lint Lover "You're nobody til somebody loves you" Somewhere,somebody does love you and you love them.You are both being molded into the best possible mate for the other. The wisdom from lessons you're learning from the hardships you are currently going through will be available to you to reference back to in a time of need.This gives you the proper tools and skills needed for you to be able to meet the other's needs perfectly. 040524 ... puredream hold_my_hand 040615 ... monee cut_my_tongue_off 050104 ... Somebody that I used to know somebody? why just somebody? why not settle for more? somebodies? i dont want a stalker... be more specific 050111 ... Bree I love... this guy. But he doesn't see me. I think I know why. I'm not good enough for him. I wish I was. I wish I could be what he wants. 080206 what's it to you? who go blather from