silence_i_crave
so fucking lost
the
princess
is
at
war
with
the
dragons
.
or
the
dragons
are
at
war
with
the
princess
.
and
you
know
when
there
are
things
that
your
head
holds
that
you
know
arent
true
,
but
it
keeps
insisting. . .
and
under
the
deluge
,
you
hold
to
this
knowledge
.
its
not
true
.
thats
not
true
.
stop
it
.
just
stop
that
.
stop
telling
me
that
.
please
030429
...
sylphide
in
an
attempt
to
fit
into
the
bill
of
the
introvert
,
i'm
putting
time
into
myself
today
. Nourishing
and
replenishing
my
thought
-ridden
side
as
opposed
to
supressing
it
.
I
crave
the
silence
of
my
mind
and
i
fear
the
only
way
i
can
submit
to
it
is
by
putting
these
thoughts
to
paper
as
opposed
to
cyber
-text.
Today
i
gave
my
journal
another
two
pages
that
no
one
will
ever
read
,
and
that
is
the
most
comforting
thought
of
mine
today
.
030430
...
D the M
from
these
ceasless
pounding
waves
...
030523
...
Piso Mojado
wind
filling
my
ears
on
a
beach
empty
except
for
lifeguard
towers.
every
noise
(
cars
, seagulls...)
is
muted
and
the
ocean
stretches
on
and
on
this
is
what
i
have
missed
most
030523
...
birdmad
to
sit
across
a
table
and
trade
glances
,
ignoring
the
clatter
and
rush
of
the
surrounding
world
to
share
a
kiss
and
be
aware
of
nothing
other
than
racing
heartbeats
to
lie
in
the
serenity
of
a
shared
darkness
and
hear
nothing
but
sighing
breaths
and
whispers
030523
...
niska
all
i
ever
wanted
all
i
ever
needed
is
here
in
my
arms
030523
...
Piso Mojado
ymh-
i
wrote
this
after
our
first
date
in
la
.
i
picked
you
up
in
front
of
your
dad's
work
.
we
ate
at
'
back
on
the
beach
.'
we
walked
and
shared
the
craziness
in
our
families.
do
you
remember
?
041221
...
heart
silence_like_glass
041222
...
Mister Brightside
the
silence
i
crave
and
the
silence
i
get
are
two
wholly
separate
and
disparate
things
.
chalk
it
up
to
delusions_of_adequacy
i
guess
.
041223
...
Somebody that I used to know
You
talk
too
much
.
050119
...
blown cherry
This
decrepit
mind
and
this
loathsome,
binding
body
can
find
no
peace
tonight
.
'
s
sense
of
looming
madness
050119
...
unhinged
fucking
noisy
ass
city
noise
above
me
noise
below
me
noise
all
around
me
the
neuroscientists
say
people
with
depression
and
anxiety
are
hardwired
to
be
more
sensitive
to
noise
.
evolutionary
biologists
say
it
is
the
cumulative
effect
of
thousands
if
not
millions
of
years
of
our
fight
or
flight
nervous
system
on
the
physical
wiring
of
our
brains
combined
with
the
malaise
of
modern
life
.
either
way
I
NEED
SOME
FUCKING
QUIET
DAMNIT
180814
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from
