side_effect_of_ravenous_hunger
grendel (overstuffed) i ate a bit too much food and drank way too much tea, now i feel as bloated as a carcass by the roadside

and to think, thanks to my crazy assed metabolism, this will only represent a temporary stall in my ongoing weight-loss
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Ouroboros depends

satiation
or continuation of unhealthy eating habit/cycle/disorder
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jane i'm sorry but this made me think of ravenous, the movie.
cannibalism, babee
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swears the misfortune i've already went longer than that without eating. 070703
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birdmad was just short of 300 lbs (298) at start of calendar 2006, as of this morning 070703 , i have reached 216 lbs, most days i eat a moderate to large amount of food, but then there are days when my metabolism demands a super-binge wherein i feel sick and hungry unless and until i consume.

then there are times on those binge days where the effect flips back suddenly (and usually during dessert) and then i feel almost painfully overstuffed for an hour or two...yesterday afternoon was one of those times, at least until about 8pm, and then i was hungry again

this will merely slow the rate at which i lose weight, the last pounds between me and my target weight of 205 have been the slowest since i got to 225...it took me 9 months to lose the first 60 pounds and it has taken me 9 more to lose the other 22...at this rate, i hope that MAYBE i can hit 205 by year's end
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dosquatch good job, and good luck! 070703
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ever dumbening confusion
circular debate
indecision
unreasonable reasoning
the passage of time
settling on something sub-par
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the incredible shrinking (but ever consuming) here i go again consuming the mass_quantities all conehead style

213.5 and still slowly dropping.

8.5 lbs from my target weight of 205, which will find me wearing 34" waist pants for the first time since i was 14

birdmad
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stork daddy clocked in at 190 the other day. at least you aren't 5'7. i seriously don't know where the weight is located. i'm thinking of doing some competitions soon, so i'd have to get down to 160 at the most. or i could just accept my future as a desk monkey and become fat and pallid.

i've got a nice writer's beard going, so that's probably like five pounds.
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bird my highest weight ever was something like 335 about 14 years ago, took longer back then to lose the same volume of weight (2 yrs) from there it kept fluctuating between 255 and 295 (+/- 10 lbs)

at my height (6'2") and with the particulars of my overall "frame", most people estimate me to be 15 to 20 lighter than i actually am.
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. Eat slowly no matter how hungry you are. It's bad to stuff yourself. 070808
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. Eat slowly no matter how hungry you are. It's bad to stuff yourself. 070808
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bird that's just it, i DO eat slowly, but when i do find myself eating a lot in one day, it's a matter of eating CONSTANTLY, genius. 070809
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falling_alone i ate 13 wendy's nuggets today. although thoses were spread out during the day at work, and then i came home and ate a spoiled salad slathered in ranch and chicken again and then i opened up the bag of pretzels to dip in more dressing...

working leaves me feeling empty.
and a full belly leaves me awake.
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skye it hurts my jaw.
magic wok cashew chicken.
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bird(RAVENOUS)mad with the last of the petty cash until next payday, i bought a small rotisserie chicken, roasted 2 large potatoes with garlic, sage, salt and pepper and a nice side of the infamous haricot_vert

right now i wish i hadn't been so hungry that i didn't leave leftovers.

i want more
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unhinged my hormones do that; my roommate never lived with a girl before me. (well his mother of course, but she's neurotic and old_fashioned so i'm sure there was always a cover up when it came to her cyclical habits and nature.)

'didn't you just eat like an hour ago?'


and the guilt i felt after eating a fattening supper to turn around and gobble up some chocolates was only compounded. he learned my glare from questioning my eating habits. or

'pms sean. it's pms.'

which would of course sufficiently fluster him. he doesn't question my hormonal eating anymore.
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anger
desperation
hopelessness
fatigue

a poor man is an angry man because his aching cavernous stomach won't give him any rest
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the incredible shrinking birdmad i'm spending all my money on food when i would rather be spending it on clothes and other amusements, especially now that i'm down to 210 lbs (my ultimate goal is 200 even)

18 years later, i've slimmed down enough to where i can wear the same sizes i wore in high-school in spite of the volumes of food i eat, and mostly, i've never felt healthier or more energetic

it's kinda freaky, really.
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jane congrats, bird. i'm proud of you. 071030
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the comparatively medium sized bird danke. 071030
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Syrope yea - that's insanely awesome. major congrats.

i was at 285 when i blinked back tears on the scale at the endocrinologist's office. the 9 months of learning how to eat again and taking those damned pills for my pancreas got me down only 15 lb. then i started byetta (synthetic gila monster venom, actually) injections and lost 10 lb in 2 weeks. besides the strange bruises on my abdomen, i'm very pleased. now i only have the scary sugar swings when i do something stupid, like sleep through a meal. it's amazing. my moods are so much better without all those insulin spikes.

then i left home, and have been gone one month and one day - abroad for business. i haven't been on a scale but nothing fits any more. i like being too small for my clothes. i feel awesome. i look at myself naked in the mirror and am like "holy crap...it's happening"...but then other times i look and go "i look 20 lb heavier than yesterday...what gives?"

my image of myself is so screwed up, still.

anyway, i would say the side effects of ravenous hunger for me are wooziness, uncontrollable irritability, and blurry vision.
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Ouroboros it happens mostly before my period- the craving for something unknown, that no food i have or can think of can fulfill. 071030
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: The success of one's hunger strike. 071030
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Ouroboros "Prader-willi syndrome is a disorder in which a person cannot stop themselves from eating. Someone with this condition will often steal, hide food or eat the petís food. Mental retardation, friendliness, lack of muscular tone, obesity, short stature, incomplete sexual development and a stubborn attitude are other common factors in someone with this disorder.

The insatiable appetite of someone with prader-willi syndrome is a congenital condition, meaning it was present at birth, caused by an abnormality in the genes. This constant need for food is caused by a defect found in the hypothalamus. This part of the brain determines the hunger of a person, and with its defect, the person can never achieve a state of complete fullness."
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. hunger for what? 071103
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different dot . good question! 071103
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hsg clearer vision. 080103
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birdmad my history of promiscuity even when i was a massive (and odd looking) wall of muscle and fat precludes the notion of impaired physiological sexual development, i am most definitely not in any way retarded and this seems to be, if anything, more the result of a bizarre metabolic shift.

i now require less sleep on average and now i only need a good abdominal workout to lose the bulge that has lingered around my midsection and to shed the last of the weight to reach my absolute final target weight of between 190 and 195 (i am currently, as a result of the usual holiday excesses back up to 209 from a 17 year low of 206)

also, unlike a prader-willi sufferer (or a dalmatian dog, similarly) i do become quite aware of when i have eaten too much at any one sitting and stop at the first sign of any discomfort.

interestingly enough, i am less prone to massive binging (by some standards) in a single sitting when the opportunity and motivation present themselves...instead of consuming enough calories for 3 and a half to five people in 2 sittings, i do it over the course of 6 smaller meals and have seemingly switched from tending toward hyperglycemic (160 mg/dL and above) episodes where my blood glucose levels would climb dangerously high to now being prone to hypogylcemic (90 mg/dL and below) episodes wherein i must eat something or go into a state equivalent to the early stages of insulin shock (disorientation, irritability, headaches)

my doctor is suitably baffled
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Ouroboros my sweetie is hypoglycemic
so he stays away from sugar
and when he eats fruit with high sugar content, he balances it out with protein (chicken/cheese.) he always has a nut bar (lara bar) in his pocket. eats smaller meals, many snacks, doesn't overeat to the point of needing to nap after, and never gets to the point of ravenous hunger if he can help it. this system has helped him feel better and stay balanced.

i, on the other hand, skip meals, eat large amounts of pasta in one sitting, and live off chocolate. not so balanced over here.
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then i am the hummingbird every couple of days i get a rampaging bitch of a sugar craving and as such i either keep a batch of cookies, or the means to bake some handy...if not, i'm off to the grocery store a couple of blocks away surrendering to the evil siren call of Little Debbie and her goddamn snack_cakes 080105
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Ouroboros bicycling makes me hungry all the time 080803
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