save_me kingsuperspecial from_myself from_the_empty from_heartache from_alcohol from_mania from_hopeless from_wanting from_my_past from_leonard 010914 ... BioHazzard Pandora's box of evil tricks Between white walls in pairs of two Pondering into waking light Air so dry, so empty Sitting here in a dream-state darkness There are no doors, no windows Look into my eyes and I'll show you what you've missed Stare into my eyes of hate Glance at my face of truth Peek at a heart so cold, it will freeze your soul at mere touch do you think you can make me move? Turn around! Run away! your locked in here now welcome to my world.... 010914 ... vampers but before you do, please, save him first 010914 ... Aimee I hope I never have to utter these words again. I hope I never have to feel this way again... I'm worried I can't keep my demons at bay, one of them broke through because of a fucking doctor's appointment and I spent the day just wishing the asshole had killed me after raping me. I never want to have to say these words again. 010915 ... florescent light help me I say help me I can't be saved 010915 ... jen from the ranks of the freaks who suspect they could never love anyone. 010915 ... ilovepatsajak oops, there's another jen. 010915 ... bijou "sometimes i just wish i was normal. y'know, a normal girl." i was tired of standing in the line in the bathroom in a cloud of perfume and hairspray, surrounded by all the girls who were the hot shit in high school. i was never one of them, i never really wanted to be one of them. they had all put on a few pounds since high school, and their makeup only made them look older. but they were still beautiful, still able to control you somehow, they could get you to do almost anything and you would find yourself laughing at their jokes, agreeing with their stupid remarks. i felt so strange, in the bathroom of that bar in my hometown. i remembered why i don't go to bars in my hometown. i was standing there in an inside-out t-shirt and chuck taylors tennis shoes and i felt the exact same way i did in high school. out of place. out of step with the world. what bothers me is while the five of us are sitting at a table meant for four, you are watching every one of them with your jaw hanging down to the table. everything you do just re-emphasises to me how worthless i am to you, how none of what happened meant anything to you. "it's okay, you're 'not normal' in a good way. you're a good not normal." thanks josh. 010915 ... kingsuperspecial i like you, bijou. I relate to many things you say. just thought I'd announce that. not sure what for, but there you go. _ferchrissakes 010915 ... so fucking lost how can one save oneself from oneself? how can one save oneself from thyself? how can one save oneself when one does not want to be saved? not if it means missing out on all this. 020419 ... . sometimes_these_nights_are_unbearable 050907 ... IGG red blather you_re_not_real_and_you_can_t_save_me 050908 ... stork daddy i don't pay any interest. 050908 ... dan interest rates seem low worldwide but with proper investment of diligent attention, rewards could be greatly improved on all sides. 050911 ... three words nightmare_01 super_street_blather_2_turbo_edition save_me 110617 what's it to you? who go blather from