solitude hsg a mind and a mirror 100429 ... lostgirl a mirror? or perhaps a transparent window that reflects thoughts back while allowing them to shine through simultaneously... 100430 ... hsg I suppose that'd be a two_way_mirror The solitudinous one to which I refer suggests that you_are_that "reflection". Psychic_ally, karmic_ally, and luxily. 100430 ... kerry this house was abandoned and then suddenly full of people and critters and unfamiliar (unwelcome) smells and habits and the fridge is packed with food i'd never buy or eat and there is no quiet, not anywhere. i have very little to offer i am bled dry and brittle i am quietly packing up, picking up pieces and fragments that to you may look soft but they are slicing up my palms and there are tiny holes in my feet that make it hard to walk--i creep around on my toes i can hardly think; it’s like my ears are conch shells and all i hear are waves crashing do you ever feel alone even though you're surrounded by people? do you ever feel lonely but all you want is to escape and find some quiet little corner by yourself, maybe a hollow in a tree, maybe under the stairs, maybe behind all those dusty shoes and suitcases in the closet or maybe just a long walk by the river by the boathouses, but what a long bus ride away… 210821 ... unhinged i crave it so much i know it must be bad for me like croissants klonopin whiskey so that when i finally get here i look around and wonder where everyone else went how many days it will take for any of them to notice that i've been gone and the sick bitch that lives in my head starts up again of course they don't notice of course they don't care do you know anyone that will sell you their benzos? stop for a bottle of gin while you're out 210822 what's it to you? who go blather from