sister jinx Why couldn't I be the pretty one, or the smart one? Even after frying your brain-people see you before they even blink at me. 020822 ... 0of46 I think that once, while walking down a street back to the show, I spoke to a girl much like yourself... I told that very pretty girl, that was very similar to yourself, something, and I think that it made her smile. And if I had to say something to you right now it would be, "Smile more, you can blow anyone away with that smile." 020827 ... belly fire I take mine for granted. In part, I believe, because I always thought of her as a little girl tripping over her own shadow... I took this trip for her and I wanted everything to be about her but I never planned on how much I would get out of it. Kristi on the couch. Kristi in the backseat. Kristi on the balcony. Kristi in the pool. Kristi in the bathroom. Kristi at the airport. Kristi under the water. Kristi watching the sunrise. Kristi stirring the sauce. Kristi smiling. Kristi giggling. Kristi sleeping. Kristi. My not-so-baby sister. She made my every minute on that island more grand than the first time because we did it together. And now I miss her terribly. It wasn't coming back that was the hard part, it was watching her go home. Leaving my place too quiet and Kristi-less. I miss my sister. 030113 ... antisocialbehaviuor i just got a postcard from mine. =) my sister is so cool...my two other sisters are cool to - but whenever i think of my sister, i think of her... we have so much fun together. i miss her. 030114 ... DammitJanet your little sister became mine. i didn't realize how much more the trip could be with her there. ya like that!? i'm sickened! i miss her too. 030115 ... DammitJanet i love you, you should know that. but sometimes i don't like you. at times we're the best of friends and others i'm the enemy. i've always been the cause of your troubles i've been the one to blame. you're selfish, greedy, childish amoung other things. my feelings are the last to be concidered at times you care for your friends siblings more than your own some days you act like i'm the most important person but then you turn around and i'm in your way everything you do is perfect and nothing i do is significant, even though i do more than you. you have days where you're incredibly supportive and i need to hear your thoughts then you sit down and i should leave you alone because you can't stand to be in the presence of someone who has nothing going for them apparently i'll be the one living at home until i'm 30, despite the fact that you're still here and you are it's no longer the case where i battle to get the support and pride from my parents, it's you who i'm still fighting for and i just don't understand why. i don't understand how one night you'd call me at 3am because you all of a sudden were worried about me, then the next night make fun of me for even thinking that you cared even if i try to talk to you you leave the room like the conversation is of no importance. do you not see a problem between us? because there always has been one. and for once i want you to explain. 030204 ... mcdougall sarah today's her birthday happy birthday 031124 ... uow she works so hard and she plays so much she's got her marbles together 040927 ... jinx Come to find out, my sister is jealous of me in some ways too. I guess we're even. 040927 ... belly fire she is the only one in the whole wide world who truly knows me me for who I have been me for who I am today 041112 ... belly fire She said the most peculiar things to me on the phone the other day. Between a conversation about an eye infection and the hand-me-downs I gave her last week she slipped in an offertory about him. She was afraid one day she would want to leave him but couldn't. She was afraid of how he would hate her, how he would hurt himself, how he might never let her go. Chuckled, carried on talking about the party on Saturday. "Will he be coming too?" "No. He doesn't want to. Which means he doesn't want me to either. Bee-bo." 050304 ... Cole She's so far away, and I don't think she knows how much I care about her. She didn't know me growing up, but I thought of her a lot. I just want her happy, safe and taken care of. I worry about her. Maybe one day we can be close, get to know each other well. It all makes me so sad. 061101 ... belly fire she stood beside me my angel and maid of honour 061102 ... nom i ran into my sister i was going somewhere she was going somewhere she didn't introduce me to her friend i noticed she hasn't been doing that lately there are a lot of things we don't tell eachother she said she'd call me later 070202 ... nom i haven't talked with my other sister in a long time it was my nephew's birthday and i didn't call 070202 ... nom i've been hanging out with my oldest sister a lot lately, and talking with her more and i've called my older sister a few times,...need to call her more 070305 ... crOwl i wish i had a sister. 071219 ... Bespeckled Little sprite of wonderment my sparkling charming star. Your light on light makes light brighter, your light on dark makes glitter sparkles. My little darling happiness, how proud I am such glee I feel watching you dancing your feathery smashing twinkly blessed lovely life. MUAH! 100712 ... tender_square it was the manner that she was standing two steps from inside the sliding door, hunched over a shopping cart, staring at a cell phone, oblivious to any traffic behind her. it was also her uniform: black leggings and flip flops; a black knitted cardigan with white norwegian shapes worn in warm weather; the ball cap and the haphazard bun poking out of the half-moon. i realized then that if it was her, i didn't want to speak to her. what was there to say? better to let the gulf exist unspoken than to acknowledge a face that so resembles my own. she pushed the cart into the deli section and i veered a hard left towards frozen foods. 230614 what's it to you? who go blather from