running_on_empty past it's hard to start a new adventure when conditions that bring it into being drain all emotional and physical reserves. 150426 ... unhinged . i work so much i have no time to enjoy my life. now thats quality. 150426 ... leif I am so empty. I couldn't run if I tried. 150427 ... flowerock I should, run on empty. Because now I am hardly running at all and it is draining any motivation or fire I have. Then what do I have? An empty tank and a heart empty of spirit? A lover empty of passion because what should he feel? Running on empty might potentially be a positive thing if applies correctly and the emptiness appropriately refilled afterwards. I am often really just too full of sluggish sludge and that turns into emotional sludge, then the two just feed eachother until I am literally stuck in the mud, unable to play in it if I even tried. 150427 ... epitome of incomprehensibility First it was panic and jellybeans. Now, I don't care as much and the jellybeans are all gone. 150504 ... past when the heart runs low, the body will do its best to carry on. 150528 ... past my younger self could be cryptic, and i am only sort of sure what this was about but the title still resonates, but differently. the days are so long, the weeks and months so short. i feel exhausted at the end of each day, so ready for sleep, and yet so unsatisfied with its passage i wish there was more i could have done. time is sand in my hands, escaping between my fingers, getting lodged under my nails. i can't hold on to it, nor can i shake it free. 220622 what's it to you? who go blather from